I need someone to help me please x:(

i actully wouldnt want anyone talking me down from suicide and preaching stuff because i dont want to be a pain but i just wanted to say please dont do anything silly if you are young and have your health, if this is over a girl/boy(dont know your sex) or money worries, bullying, lonelyness, no friends, horible family, etc it WILL get better i can ensure you that, im almost 32 and have been suicidal for a long time i have all the above but also i am transexual and everyday is a knightmare for me i have no help to get the hormones to change me to the sex i should be and really there is no end of the pain for me in sight, i am a hypocrite because even i should not be atempting suicide i i have many times, if you have terminal illness or a extreemly bad way of life that absolutly cant ever get better then maybee that is the only reason to die, if anyone gives you suicide method advice dont try it you will prob just end up makeing yourself ill and end up in phychee hospital, why not just give up on life be dead to the world i am doing this right now, (((but things will get better)))think keep on going may as well only live once, it will get better