So tired of this, what the hell is the point..

Okey, well this must be really hard to walk through, if you love your kids, maybe you can try to talk to them and explain the situation and later in life spend time with them and visit them, get a new girlfriend and stuff. I don’t know what else can you do. Sometimes life is just harsh and not fair and fucks you up I know. I wanted to suicide so many times to just stop torturing myself. Well here I am, alive just trying to get a normal life. Try to start all over again. Hope I helped even just a little tincy wincy little bit.