I feel as if I’m being forced to live. I’ve had a desire to die for at least 5 years, which has gotten even deeper in the past 2 years. I’m so weak, I’m only willing to do what is the quickest and most harmless to kill myself, but those ways cost money, something I don’t have.
I would love to work, in fact, that’s what would keep me from the constant bleak and suicidal thoughts in my head and perhaps make me want to live because life would be working out in my favor for once, but whether it’s overpopulation or the economy that’s keeping me from even landing an interview, I’m still in the position I’ve been in for the past several years, an antisocial unemployed hermit with nothing to contribute to society.
I could explain my entire philosophy/mentality, but it’s incredibly difficult to, even if anyone would be willing to listen. This is why I feel like I’m trapped. People have other things to do, like watch TV and talk to other people that are just like them, subordinate apes with shiny toys.
I’m mostly sick of no one willing to consider the way I think. American society claims to be tolerant of everyone, yet when I decide to come out of my shell and explain myself like everyone else does, people are anything but tolerant. I’m labeled in the form of passive-aggressive suggestions that I need “Help”. They only say those things so they feel better about themselves, like an armchair therapist.
Thinking about everything heavily confuses me to the point where I have no clue what I’m even saying, and that’s what society wants. It creates the crazy homeless people that you try to avoid on the street. They did what I don’t have the balls to do, which is to give up on society, give up on people. None of it matters at the end of the day. When the human animal is finally extinct (the sooner, the better), the universe wouldn’t be affected at all, in fact, it could benefit from not having to endure our waste.
I’d love to live just to spite everyone else, as well as live the way I want to, but it just doesn’t seem like a reachable option right now, and that kills me. I really don’t know what to do, so I’ve decided to take to the internet so see what you scumbags think. Love you
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so I’ve decided to take to the internet so see what you scumbags think. Love you
Negative attitude right there. What can we say, we can’t magically wish jobs on people or good financial fortune and the economy everywhere in the world is shit and looks to be worse. Would you rather have me lie and say rainbows are right around the corner?
Well, I know it’s stupid to think I’m entitled to a job (which I do irrationally think sometimes out of anger), it’s just gotten overwhelming.
Hi There, interesting post, i think a lot of us scumbags ? probably agree with your thoughts, but what is the alternative, or way to change it ? some people say, be the change u want to see in the world, but i personaly thing that is a load, as some people are sensitive to the shit fight that life has become, and some are not…. Humans had the chance to go forth expand, evolve, grow, but the final result ended up being The United States of America, and that is basicly shitsville…..
Hahaha we’re all scumbags, me included, don’t take it personally.
That’s exactly what I mean, no one seems to get that there really is nothing positive. It would be great to be that change you want, but we all know that it’s the easiest thing in the world to say, but the hardest thing to actually execute.
People that have anything going for them just love to give shoddy advice to people just to feed their own self-obsessions, which we all have. I don’t know, it’s really overwhelming to think about, I wish I had a specific answer or solution, but that’s not how life works, but I’m getting very tired of it shitting on me.
I used to have a friend who used to always give an opinion and he’d get off on giving the worst advice you could give and trying to disguise it as helpful….fucking parasite.
hey buddy i already sent this advice to one person. its all bad karma. we got to burn it down with our will power before even deciding to take our own life. believe me its worth it.. just give it a fight.. then when u feel u have fought enough… just end it… no need to fear death… death is nothing but the start of a different battle…. hope u understand….. ask me what i have done… for 5 years now… just like u…. but now i know the time has come… and end it i will….
Hey, I don’t think there’s anything wrong with being angry you can’t find a job. We live in a society where all the resources are owned so it’s not like you can take a wagon train west and stake a claim or anything. The only commodity those of us not born into wealth have in this system is our labor-value, and when that system doesn’t want our labor, society says you are the problem. But the way we’ve organized our society creates winners and losers — and since full employment is neither possible nor desirable economically, it ensures there will be losers. If our society were organized differently, there would be different winners and losers. I actually think it is not unreasonable to think that, if you are willing to work, you are entitled to a job in some moral sense. Doesn’t change how things actually are, of course, but I don’t think your anger is unjustified.
when you start venturing outside the box, you know you’re fucked
“when you start venturing outside the box, you know you’re fucked” so true it is like escaping the matrix, seeing the mess of reality and than you’ve already passed the point of no return.
sleep 8 hours, work 8 hours, play 8 hours, then back to square one. well that would be OK if it would make sense but living with less and less rights more and more damage to mother earth just to pay taxes which are fed into corporations, war etc. and being thrown away once exhausted just makes no sense to me.
brave new world
yours beatenup
I don’t have much else to say besides I agree with all of you haha. Thanks guys