I have two years to go, but once I am old enough I plan to join the military. However… the problem arises where I am sortof self diognosed with bipolar disorder. Like, I have every symptom to horrible extremes. I told one friend about this and she immediatly told me to see a doctor, because she had dealt with something close (major depression w/psychotic features). But, if I see a doctor, they will not let me join the military and 30 years of my life will be gone. I have been in this depressed state for about a year now and lately I have been thinking a lot about suicide. Enough to try 22 times in the past year (all of them unsuccessful). I really think that if I see a doctor everything will get much worse but… everything else can get much worse too. Any opinions?
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I don’t really know anything about that stuff despite being from a military family, but could you join the military and then see a doctor? I don’t know what to say about that, but you definitely should seek help in some form or another, especially going into a tense job like military service. A doctor may be a life saver.
Also if you’ve tried 22 times in the past year there’s definitely something wrong. Usually high rates of attempts come from people choosing less lethal methods because they’re not sure if they really want to die. Sorry i wasn’t trying to be insulting.
I wouln’t say less lethal… just really hard to kill. and so the thought occured to join the military
22 times is like once a fortnight I’d say you have bi-polar.