Mostly, I can deal with the day to day bullshit of this world, and for the most part I manage to stay positive, which is almost impossible in this fucked up world we live in. I HATE IT HERE! Believe it or not, one of my major roles in life, is encouraging people…and Im damned good at it. I do what I do because I have a deep love for humanity, I feel your pain, and I HATE IT HERE…so if I must be here, let me do all I can to help and encourage others. It hurts my heart to see good people suffering at the hands of corrupt, evil, heartless people, whom, for some Ungodly reason, have been given power over the masses. I worship the God of love most sincerely, and I Trust the God of love with my life! Yet, even with this being the truth… I still wonder, when I see the good suffer at the hands of evil, if God really exists. and even as I ask, Inside I know it is true. Why God???? Why??? Why are they allowed to live well off corruption while good people spend their lives worrying, crying, and struggling just to survive? why??? Am I in hell??? and if so, what for??? I use 98% of my time and energy trying to convince people of how wonderful and loving God is, and to go to God for their help. I do believe…I more than believe, I know God…. but I still hate it here! Today I wish that we had a button that we could push to erase our lives and any traces of us ever existing at will. I want to die, but I don’t want anyone to hurt behind it. I surely won’t. Im tired of struggling and watching evil people prosper! Im tired of not being able to give my children the lives they deserve! Im tired of making excuses for the bill collectors! I tired of my mind all-ways being filled with financial obligations! Im tired of doing everything alone!!! Im tired of this Fucked up World!!! I thought this was God’s World!!! Why is the only way to be successful is to get with the program??? How are they able to starve, rape, murder, and enslave people, and continue to live the good life, while the victims are just made to swallow their pain. why god??? Why the fuck am I here??? I have always known I didnt belong here, I hate this backwards mutherfucker and the inhuman mutherfuckers that run it!!! Why does God let this happen???…why for so fucking long????! I am the saddest girl in the world. I want out!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!! I cannot reveal these thoughts anywhere else because so many people look to me for guidance and insight. I am sincere in my work. Its just that noone understands what all of this is like from my perspective. I FUCKING HATE IT HERE!!!
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I feel like we have to stay sane in order to keep the world around us sane. You’d be suprised at how many days I’ve felt the excact same way you do. I definetly know how it can be but there is beautiful in this world, just look in alittle further. When you read these post, comment on them be a friend. Prevent this suicide, make people happy. Be there for a human being, I’m sure you do but do as much as you can before you give up. If you need a person to vent to you can message me, I’m here. 🙂
You can’t bear the weight of the world on your shoulders, and no one can. The most anyone can do is attempt to allieve some of the weight that others bare, and it sounds like that’s something that you do indeed strive for, which is great, shy not continue? You say you’re sad because you cannot give your children the lives they deserve, well they would only be worse off if you were to leave them.
Don’t let the sadness and evil of the world overwhealm you, choose your battles and try to change things little by little.
If you want to scream scream, let out your anger, but i think you have a good heart and you should make use of it. The world needs more people like you who care, so stick around..please? 🙂