This was from my journal i cut out alot of it. I apologize in advance if you think im just crying out.
why am i not good enough for you momma? why do i feel unloved by you? why do i feel like a pile of **** when we talk momma? momma why have you hurt me enough to lead to trying to kill myself? please momma i need answers for my feelings. i want you to love me momma. why do i have all these scars momma? why do i feel empty when i hug you? momma your son loves you and does all he can to try and make you love him. he cries himself to sleep everynight thinking about what he can do to have love from you. he cuts himself often feeling he deserves the pain because he cant please you. he wants to join the military and die for something because hes not enough to die for you. he talks about going into fighting mabye he can make enough money to buy you all these things you wanted. he doesnt want to fail you. he tries his best eveyday. why cant you see it momma? must he die for you momma? he can if you want him to.
I love you momma with all my aching heart.
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im so sorry:/ this is so sad….
And my respond is from my heart: I wish for you to feel loved, and loved by her for all your life!
Thankyou.
no one deserves to feel like that. it hurts, i know. have u tried talking to her at all about how you feel?
I have sadly. It didn’t phase her I don’t know what to do at this point i thought about giving up I couldn’t put my little brother through that though. I just.. I don’t even know.
well u should try to find another trusted person to talk to! and im sure ur bro loves and needs u!