Hey, anyone who’s a little interesting in this stranger. I already wrote something saying that I was thinking about killing myself and also talking about my own life. Anyway, I’ve decide to leave the world but I can’t. I’m so angry right now. I can’t kill myself. I was thinking in committing suicide by carbon monoxide poisoning.  I can’t because my parents, aunt or grandparents could see me. I thought committing suicide by taking too much pills (my original plan). Then I felt really retarded when I notice that wasn’t as easy as I thought. I don’t want any suffer so I’m not going by hanging, wrist cutting, suffocation, hypothermia, electrocution, jumping from height (that’s too dramatic for me), drinking bleach or any other toxic substance (excepting the pills overdose and carbon monoxide poisoning), etc.
Can anyone help me? I’m getting really bored.
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First of all love your name, penny royal tea is one of my faviorate songs off of inutero! It sounded more like the songs on bleach.
And when you kill yourself it hurts everybody around you! It’s really a permeant solution to a temporary problem ^.^
No, Sweetie I can’t help you with that cause I haven’t found the solution to that dilemma myself. If I knew of a non horrid, painful, disgusting death I would not be here any longer to write this post. We share the same favorite method but I’ve researched enough to know that it will NEVER work. Pills don’t kill you unless they are Barbiturates like Seconal or ******** and good luck to us getting our hands in that. Just like you, I’m stuck in this life cause it’s really hard to live but it seems that’s even harder to die!
Do some research on the helium hood. It’s too weird for me but at least it supposed not to be painful. Feel better meanwhile.
Yeah, I’ve never thought that dying was so hard. It’s a long torture.
I’m reading about the method you told me and it seems very interesting. I’m weird so this looks like something good for me. The problem is getting the helium.
Really? It’s one of my favorites songs too, I spent a whole weekend listening Pennyroyal Tea and Dumb over and over.
It does hurt people around you, but that’s just if they love you. I will not hurt so much people and also they will not feel really hurt.
Its extremely easy to buy helium. Buy it from a science website, or you could buy a propane tank (it shouldnt have to be large). Pay to get the propane tank filled , get extremely close to the tank, And do one of two things:
throw a knife at it or shoot it with a gun. Whichever way you do it, the tank will blow up and you will be dead.
haha imagine if propane tanks did explode when you shot at them, the world would be a different place.
Lolz man yeah they do, its a low powered explosion thats why i said get extremely close to it. As in 5 inches. Thats like saying a knife cant cut a vegetable. As long as the force is fast enough to enter the propane tank at a high speed (such as a gun or a fast knife throw) it will explode. Who told you that, your science teacher, or an incorrect web article?
it was actually on mythbusters. took a gatling gun with high explosive powder to blow it up. so when did you shoot and stab a propane tank till it blew up? or did you just read an incorrect web article. dont tell me you saw it in a movie or video game hahahahaha.
Don’t listen to the idiots giving you ideas, that’s not even allowed on this sight, sounds to me like you have all these excuses because somewhere inside you don’t really want to kill yourself. So don’t give yourself a chance to see your future.
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@people_do_care (no idea about how to reply correctly a commentary so I’m doing this), in somehow, you’re right. All those excuses are real but I also feel a little calm when I can’t kill myself. I feel frustrated, but calm. Actually, reading my diary, I’ve noticed that sometimes I write about my future and talk about it like I were sure about it. But I’m too tired, too bored… I just want a little peace.