today was aweful. i felt like a complete screw up. i went to donate blood with my sister. so i get everything ready and im ready for them to do it. they told me to choose an arm . well i stuck out my arm and they saw my cutting scars. they wer like “ur not just doing this to feel the pain are u?” i was shocked and i felt soo judged. i wanted to die right then and there. i wanted to whither away in the wind. my sister came over to me and said i know ur ashamed of the scars and wat u did. again i was shocked, im not ashamed of what i did or of what i do. i was appalled that my own sister said that. again i wanted to die. those people shouldnt of said anythng to me about my scars its none of their business.
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Thats just the 99% of people dont get it and dont understand, and its always hard hearing loved ones say something like that. People on the outside looking in will never get it. Try and do something good and they think you have alterer motives. Its like you cant win for losing, been there
I cut on my thighs, it’s safer!