Again, this is going to be about Shekiera. I don’t know why, but I feel like I have to record things about her before I forget. not that I would. but I want to remember these memories and dreams before I can’t recall them anymore.
Dream #1:
I can’t really remember this dream, because it was a year ago that I had it. but, I’m going to try and tell you here today. Okay. so, in real life I got my Driver’s license Last year in June, a month after she passed. I didn’t have the dream until four months after that. In that dream I remember I was driving on this very very familiar road, it was familiar because it looked like the road that I see everyday, my hometown drive. but it was different at the same time, on both sides of the road, there were huge billboards, on these billboards I can’t remember what was on them, I guess I was too busy driving, and I remember I was with my mom, and we were talking. and then I looked at this one billboard, and standing on the billboard, was Shekiera. I remember this is when everything went slow-motion, I remember doing a double-take, I looked at her, looked away, then looked at her again. she was so pale, and she was frowning, she truly looked unhappy, and as I slowly drove past, I saw her eyes following mine. and watched me drive away, leaving her to stand there as I moved on with my life.
I obsessed about that dream for a long time. that was the first time I had seen Shekiera since the funeral. so I told that dream to everyone who would listen.
Dream #2:
This dream was a little sketchy, I don’t exactly know where I was, I didn’t recognize the place. but I was in a bar, like one of those really older looking bars and there were old guys there, I didn’t recognize any of them. So, I was walking on through, looking at everyone and kind of kept my head down at the same time, trying to head to the front so I could leave. and then I passed the bar where they handed out the drinks to people. and I was nearly out of the door when I stopped and turned around. there I saw standing, in a bright golden glow, was Shekiera. her natural hair color is dark brown, but in my dream she was a golden blonde. I don’t know how it changed but she looked beautiful. when I saw her, my face lit up and I smiled really big, in this dream, she smiled too, she smiled and laughed. I couldn’t hear her. so I walked closer to the bar, she was behind some glass that they had surrounding the bar. I know she was talking to me, she was talking a mile a minute, I know because I remember seeing her lips moving. I kept saying I couldn’t hear her through the glass, she kind of frowned but smiled again, I loved her smile. I wanted to talk to her, to ask her what heaven and the afterlife was like, I noticed there was an opening in the glass and I motioned for her to go to it so I could talk to her, she shook her head and tried telling me to stop but I wanted to hear her speak. I went to the opening and glanced at her one last time through the glass. then stuck my head through the glass. she was gone. and that’s when I woke up.
I’m all about dream analysis and I know in my gut that these dreams have hidden meaning inside of them. and just having these dreams in my memory makes me happy because I can always go back and think of them, trying to see them at different angles and discussing to myself what the dreams could mean. it’s funny because in real life, my friends notice that I zone out alot and tend to lose focus, but I can’t tell them that I’m thinking of these dreams because they would just shrug and continue talking about what they were talking about before. no one really cares except me. so I keep this to myself.
Thanks for reading.