Seeing You, I cannot lie… it kills me
IÂ get even more depressed when I see You.
Your beautiful eyes.. dirty blonde hair that always flips to one side..
I think You’re beautiful.. absolutely beautiful..
But that’s what You think about.. Her..
Not me.
Seeing You smile, brightens up my day
yet still the room darkens, since Your smile isn’t towards me.
I hate seeing You, and not being able to talk to You
Hold You
Touch You
Kiss You
and mostly..
Love You.
I can love You from afar.. but it is not the same as when I was loving You upclose..
Seeing You is like a little knife being stabbed in my heart
and several blows to the stomache.
Seeing You with her.. that’s just plain old hell..
Huge knife to the heart, rapid punches to my gut, and a weakness in my knees.
Seeing You with someone else makes my future look hopeless..
But all I can do is hope that, that isn’t true..
But I truely do
Love Seeing You
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Abselom,
beauitful and sad,love every word even “rapid punches to my gut” so how long has this been going on? you don’t to answer. i hope some one comes along and fixes that weakness in your knees. poor baby
My ex and I dated for a yea a a half, and in high school that’s a really long time! We broke up for a little bit but got back together. In the last few months he broke up with me and a few days later it said on Facebook “single to in a relationship” He had a new girlfriend.. And I see te both if them EVERY day…
Abselom,
Sweetie your young and it’s for the best now you’re going to have a chance to meet someone that you will be nuts about even more! Just like picking bananas out at the store you got to go through a few to get the best one! I know bad analogy. and don’t forget he will get his turn to watch you walk away beside a lucky guy. aint karma a *****!
Rocketman, you really are just full of cliches 🙂 and i love it! i just hope that time comes soon. You see, the new semester is coming up, and my ex and i have a class together.. i have tried to see if i could alter my schedual and there is no way to do so without screwing up all of my classes. so im kinda stuck seeing him everyday for the rest of the year :/ thats whats really starting to get to me!
Sten-whats the best way to start ‘looking up’ its been long enough that i really do need to start getting over it (although i truely believe that he will be a person that i love forever, and for the rest of my life no matter what). I need to start putting all of that aside.. i mean ive met new people.. but just… i cant let him go. Something keeps telling me not to, but i NEED to.. any advice?
As hard it is going through this.. Just know, that it was an experience. An experience that is going to pay off with your future relationships. The first days, weeks, and months might be really tough. I’ve been there. And I know it’s hard and might be a little straightforward – but you need to tell yourself that he was not the one. Once you realize that, everything is going to go upwards again 🙂 And yes, doing all that is really hard… Especially considering the fact that you have to see them together every single day. The change is going to start from your own mind – think about the right things. Although it’s okay to feel down at first, you need to start somewhere – from the way you see things.
Abselom,
you just walk in that class and shake your shit and hold your head hi and smile! he’s like and open book you read it you know how it ends so close it and put him back on the shelf.
There you go again with your cliches!:) but I will do my best to do so! I plan to look very sexual the first day if that class, ass looking nice and boobs poppin 😉 just to Piss him off really.. But whatever works I guess!