found out the greatest news today from my friend. My bf, whom i havent seen since monday, isn’t coming back to school. Fucking Awesome. we’ve been together a little over 2 months and i was looking forward to a lot longer than that. She said it like it was nothing, and i was internally getting pissed off, which led to numbness and everyone thought i was pissed, becuase thats what my facial expression was. He got some kind of job and i don’t know how to deal with this. Things were finally getting better and I felt the world wasn’t constantly conspiring agaisnt me now, but i guess i was just blind to the fact that no matter what, i cant make headway in my life.
I haven’t got to my razor lately, and i’m proud of that..slightly and i’ve just been numb to the fact most of the day and i figured that while i’m a member, i should post more often. I tried to talk to my ‘friends’ today, but they got up and walked away, leaving me alone and ignoring me. I love my life so much. Can’t i just have some sleeping pills so i dont have deal with all this shit, and have a break? all this pressure and emotional crap isn’t what i signed up for.
Anyway, some more music
Colors- Crossfade
Numb- Linkin park
Broken Home: Last Resort–Papa Roach
Blow Me Away-Breaking Benjamin
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i get that seems like when everything is going okay something bad is thrown at you. But thats the way life goes for all of us some of us have it worse than others. Its a time when we have to get up and stand tall and fight throught it. And i know you can. Even though i don’t know you I am also proud of you for not using your blade. Being a cutter myself i know how hard that is. You should just watch a movie eat junk ice cream and sleep until the next day take a shower or wash your face with cold water and start a new day 🙂
Like always i am a friend to everyone i will be here 🙂