Today…
My dad complained about someone at his office saying they always wanted to do something because he didn’t want to hear it and wishes they just did. I guess that means if he even payed attention enough to know how much I wanted to kill myself, he would want me to die. Nice to know.
I cut myself for the first time in a while (before the party). I really thought I had quit, but now I give up. I’ll just cut to deal with my shame from cutting.
I’m pissed at everyone (outside of people I’ve talked to or met on here) except for one friend.
I got a pity invite to a party where I proceeded to twist the shit out of my ankle. I hopped to the house I was at and waited for my parents to get me.
There was no alcohol at the party to make me feel better.
I haven’t been able to check my email like I said I would today (sorry!) because I’m physically incapable of motion without intense pain.
So yeah, I have my normal issues plus all this shit. However, don’t worry, I can’t even sit up, so I won’t be able to kill myself.
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Hey, I just saw your post now (seconds after texting you). I was worried.
I don’t think your dad would want you to kill yourself..
It really sucks. I’m sorry you hurt yourself :\ Have you gone to the doctor? Aren’t you taking anything for the pain?
I took tylenol, a lot, and have it iced, but it still hurts like crazy. I’ll be getting it checked out by a doctor tommorow. I don’t really know if he does or not, but it seemed like it based on what he said today. How are you? Did you go on your date?
I’m pretty sure he doesn’t mean it..
Well I hope your pain gets better!
Yeah it went alright, made me forget about stuff so I guess that was good. Don’t want to think too much out of it.
You didn’t read my emails did you?
I haven’t been able to. I was going to after the party when everyone was asleep, but now I can’t walk to the computer. Can you copy your email to here, or summarize, or something?
I’ll put it in a post (part of it). Was thinking of posting it here anyways. Give me just a couple seconds to edit a few things.
Did you have fun at the party anyways?
Sure, I’ll wait for it. Not really, it took me about 15 minutes to mess up my ankle (we were playing football).
So you didn’t even manage to have some fun? :\ that sucks.. how long do you think the recovery time will be?
Nope, and I have no idea, I’ll find out tommorow.
I hope it’s not too long 🙁
@hazelleyes- I’m not mad, I hope you’re okay. I couldn’t reply because I was pretty sick. Please text me that you’re okay if you see this.
If anyone reads this, please do me a favor and tell hazelleyes I’m not mad and that I was sick. I would really appreciate it, thank you.