I don’t even know why I’m writing this, I guess because I have nothing else to do. I’m almost 22, graduating from a community college this semester, jobless, and still living with my parents. I just feel fucking pointless though.
I say graduating, but I know that’s only if I can actually make it through these 2 classes I’m taking. I can’t study, I never want to, all I want to do is just waste my life away on video games, so I don’t have to think about my current life. I’m still living at my parents house, and not to brag but they are decently wealthy. So I’m living a life of luxury that I don’t deserve what so fucking ever. All I’ve ever been to them is a disappointment, and I doubt I’m going to ever make them happy/proud of me. Shit, I’ll be surprised if I live for another two years.
I’ve never had a real job. The only time I’ve worked is when I work with my friend because he needs the extra help, yeah sure I’ve applied to little shit places like Target and Wal-Mart, but I’ve never been hired. I mean, a fucking restaurant declined me because I “wasn’t qualified enough to be a dishwasher.” Are you kidding me?
So that’s where I stand. I have no idea where I’m going with my life, I can’t get a job, all I want to do is sit around and play video games and say fuck it to the world. I should’ve just killed myself years ago, but for some reason I can never bring myself to fully do it, and it pisses me off. So yeah, I don’t know why I wrote this, screw it.
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It sounds like you don’t have much to motivate you if yr parents r wealthy. Maybe you need to make life harder for yourself so you have more motivation. Move out. Then You’ll have to work to pay bills, and you’ll work harder to get a job.
You didn’t get the dishwahing job because they could tell you didn’t need it, and would Therefore do a bad job. If you needed it, things would be different
I appreciate your comment, but I don’t agree whatsoever. Even though I’ve had an easy life, when I have worked, I put 120% into it.
You misunderstand. I mean, you seem to have difficulty getting the job. Once you get it I’m sure you’re very hardworking. But people can sense if you’re unmotivated in the interview and maybe that’s why you don’t have luck at the interview. If there wa a more desperate need for you to have a job, maybe you would do better at the interview and have more success getting the job
To 666i: I have a strange suggestion, but I think it will help. Tell your parents you’d like to talk them. When they’re both ready, ask them how they would feel if you died, being sure to observe how they react.
To one_day: I think I understand where you’re coming from, but…I’m not sure moving out will help 666i…
To 666i: Do you think moving out would increase or decrease your motivation? Also, um…do you feel there’s anything preventing you from being motivated?
Don’t feel too bad 666. I’m 32 and I still live at home with my parents. I do work however and I do contribute financially and help out with chores like shoveling the driveway and vacuuming. Do you at least help out at home? I’m sure your parents would rather you be alive and at home then move out and die.
I feel like moving out would help me, but there’s no way I can afford that. I do help around the house with what I can, and I do have chores. I take out the trash and do dishes and such, but I still just feel absolutely pointless in the long run.