Im Trying :'(

sundays my birthday, im turning 16 and im not excited at all. im very depressed, i dont know what to do. i just want to die. i have nobody to talk to about how im really feeling. im tired of hiding all this. i need to open up to someone but i cant trust anybody. day by day i lose more and more friends. i think it might get to the point where i have no friends and then i would really have nobody. if i does come to that point i just might have to end my life and  i have my mom but i cant open up or tell her stuff like this, everything i tell her she ends up using it against me so i just need to stop telling her stuff. shes not my real mom. i was adopted when i was really little, my real mom was a drug addict and did bad things. i would rather live in a foster home then stay in this house  . all this stress and anger is balling up inside and i have to let it out. i used to let it out by fighting but i try not to fight anymore because i realized that it really doesnt solve anything. im learning from my mistakes. i just want to be succesful, graduate high school, get a good job, married, kids, but as the look of it right now seems like i wont be doing any of that. im giving up..im trying to stay stong but its soooooo hard, i hate crying every night. i just need someone i can trust and talk to, is that too much to ask for??