Same here. I have respect for those who have gone before me. I mean, life is compromise. I also respect those who fight on in life. But to do so seems to require an awful lot of pain and surviving deaths of those around us. A few live long because they are strong and happy. I think that most continue their struggle because of a healthy fear of death.

I’ve always been impressed by people who kill themselves. If it’s someone I feel familiar with then I am also surprised that they were suffering. My surprise fades quickly. But my awe in their bravery of the unknown and their will to die persists. That people can weigh their plight against the mystery of oblivion and choose the latter is amazing to me.