Was the dream I had yesterday night. And that’s how I knew, tonight is the night.
I guess you could call it a sign, but I’m calling it an unconcious epiphany. I dreamt of a bridge made of guns, and that’s when it hit me, I’ll just shoot myself off a bridge this time! So I found the closest bridge to my house (a 20 minute bike ride away), and I’m prepping myself now.
I have the gun, the same one that shot off part of my shoulder. And my bike is outside the house, sitting there waiting for me to go grab it. I’m also debating on whether or not I should tie a noose around my neck and attach it to the underside of the bridge for good measure. Just in case you know?
I’m hoping there won’t be too many people driving past, since I decided I’d rather not be the face plastered on the front of the newspaper though if I were, at least “they” would have something to be happy about, the person who made them feel awful would be dead.
I’ll be going at 5:37. The same time I was born 13 years and 3 months ago. I’m sure you could figure out my birthday with that info, go ahead. It’s exactly 13 years and 3 months today. As of this moment I have about half an hour before I leave.
Edit:Â I’m going now, time to sleep on a bridge made of guns.
3 comments
You shouldn’t do this, your still young & dreams aren’t always a sign! Trust me their are people who care!
Don’t do it kid. It’s a waste. Later you’ll thank people who talk you out of it. What you’re experiencing is normal for your age … what, it comes with life. Don’t be so desperate. Try looking at the bright side of life.
I think it’s pretty safe to assume our friend here is either dead or in the hospital by now. Anyone see something on the news yet? I doubt the media vultures would let a story like this get away.
Also, because my personality compels me to, here is some basic info on this person which Ive gathered by reading through their posts (you could say I’m creepy, go ahead, I’ve heard worse).
She self-harms with knives and pills(I’m not going to use past tense in order to be on the safe side)
She is 13 years old.
She seems to have an immense amount of guilt.
She seems focused on the idea of crime & punishment.
She has been to a psych(iatrist or ologist I wouldn’t know).
She might be somewhat vain.
At one time she did post on a confessions website.
She tried to kill herself before this and shot herself in the shoulder.
And whoslaghingnow, I think you may have been a bit late with your comment. And even if you weren’t, her not posting back seems plenty evidence to me that it didn’t help. I also want to add that she never posted anything about people not caring, whether she realises that people care or not, I don’t think that’s a problem in this case.