In my world, I have to constantly remind myself what’s real and what isn’t, what’s a hallucination and what’s real, and what are rational thoughts and what aren’t. I’ll see a person as an entirely different things. For example, I know that person doesn’t actually look like a dragon, but I see them that way. Or I see a bunch of bees clouding the room, they aren’t actually there, it’s just sleep deprivation. But they seem so real, and no, it’s not “The voices in me head telling me that”. I’ve heard that saying far too often. I’m schizotypal, not schizophrenic. It drives me insane though. I hallucinate every once in a while, but it’s from sleep deprivation. I can’t tell many times whether or not I actually heard someone say things, or if I imagined it.
I’m going insane. This drives me mad. I’m close to cracking under everything.
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You need more than sleep deprivation to get into a state like that, trust me there will be underlying reason why you are hallucinating and feel disconnected from the world around you
I want you to have a read of this: http://www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au/bhcv2/bhcarticles.nsf/pages/Dissociation_and_dissociative_disorders
@cam29 I know it’s more than sleep deprivation. I just didn’t mention my other problems. I’m not quite comfortable sharing.