just want to rant here. i wish someone could beat me to death cuz i do not deserve to be on this planet. Who decided to give me life anyway? My mother? Hell she should have gone to the hospital and abort me. Â Cuz I guess I was a pure accident. Â She should have adopted a puppy, that way, her incapacity to raise and take care of kids wouldnt have harm anyone. Â Im alone, live alone. Â No boyfriend cuz hell, even myself I wouldnt wanna date a depressed miserable chick like me. Â I didnt ask to come to life, Â therefore, I can do whatever I want with it.
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
4 comments
Yes… You can do whatever you want with your life. That is true. Sometimes, doing something positive can have a lot better outcome and make things a lot more tolerable. I speak from experience on this. Not too long ago, I wasn’t doing myself any favors. I’ve changed course. There are setbacks… more often than I ‘d like… but I try to find some purpose to be here.
That’s the same for me. My mom could have had her own episode on Teen Mom. I got put in a foster home though.
And hell yeah, do what you want with your life. Make the best out of something that sucks.
I feel like we are in the same boat. But I have a boyfriend. Why, how, I don’t know. Every day he reminds me I’m worthless because doctors won’t allow me to go back to work anymore.
How depressing I am and how he never wants to be around me, and he never really is. He reminds me that nobody likes me, I have no friends, no where to go if I try to leave.
He laughed when I told him I wanted to die, when I told him I hated my life. He laughed right in my face and told me to do it, and when I began to cry instead of kill myself right then and there.. He laughed even more and said that’s what I thought.
I hope you find something worthwhile in your life, I hope the same thing for myself every day. I just dont see it happening
worthless15:
Thank you for sharing, Im glad my story made you share yours.
You are not worthless, you just in a low moment now.
Its better you stay away from work until you get better. You are not worthless because you need time off from work. Even if your bf is telling you so.
I will tell you something. Nobody, I mean nobody, is allowed to treat you that way, to laugh in your face when you are vulnerable and need support, to invalidate your feelings, to make you feel like a worthless piece of s**t. Not your boyfriend, not your mother, your friend, your boss, coworkers, no-bo-dy is allowed to treat you like this.
People like this will never NEVER change. I know, I was in a similar situation as yours.
If you want to talk im here we can share emails.