Hello…this is the first time I write something like this, but I hope it works…
Never make someone your everything, because when that someone gets tired of you, you’ll have nothing…I’ve heard that so many times; and I didn’t believe it till now. My stupid decisions made me who I am….an empty girl who just wanna die. I lost my best friend…the only person I could lean on, she got tired of me all suddenly. Well not that suddenly…It was my fault, I abandoned her first, but I just wanted a real family for once…does that makes me selfish? I think that I’m selfish after all, I moved because I wanted a family for me…leaving her back there in my hometown. She quit to our friendship…I guess she wasn’t commited after all, I trusted her but now I’m a stranger for her. I always end up like a stranger for everyone. I should get used to it, but somehow I can’t. Today I don’t feel like waking up…hopefully I won’t…
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I’ve learned the hard way that there are some things I can control in life… and some things that I can’t. One thing I can’t control is the actions of others. People make decisions at will… sometimes suddenly. The best thing you can do for yourself is to work on all aspects of your life…. such as education, work, spiritual, hobbies… and then add love on to the house you built. Things like education and your work will always be there. Love, while very enjoyable, isn’t something critical and won’t collapse your house if something happens. If you work on the critical pieces of life, you might be on more solid ground when the next relationship happens.
Time might be the best thing for you right now… As time passes, the days should get easier. Don’t give up… and use it as an opportunity to focus on those things you need to work on.
Yes, we only realize once they’re gone. *sigh* But the pain will fade eventually.
It doesn’t make you selfish you just wanted a family. After all, you did mention you feel like you eventually become a stranger to everyone.
You can email me, and I will welcome you into my life. I will consider you a friend and will care for you as much as I can.
My email address is: brl.cents@gmail.com
It’s your best friends loss then, you’re a wonderful person who will find someone that will stick around through the good in the bad. You just have to hope for that day to come and pretend like you have it all together until then.