8/20/13

Popularity is fleeting. Do not worry yourself with being popular you are a freshman at the beginning of a 4 year journey that will be rough I’m not going to lie but if you are prepared for whats to come it won’t be so bad. There will be people in high school that are mean to you, bully you. talk about you and do everything else to bring you down. There will be fake friends who aren’t sincere, teachers who get on your nerves and sometimes things will go wrong even if you do everything right.

People value those qualities you named you are correct but they also value a good person. “Pretty, very smart, athletic, talented or rich” does not make a person good. Beauty on the outside will NEVER equate to beauty on the inside. Don’t let T.V and the media fool you into thinking this. Superficial people may desire those qualities but good hearted kind individuals will look beyond the surface to see who you are on the inside. In the end “looks” ,money and athletic ability go away but a beautiful good heart will last you forever.

Your brother being given everything is nothing to be upset about. you know why? because you are use to having to work for things which is how the real world works. When he enters adulthood he will fail miserably because he will be so accustomed to being given things he won’t develop a strong work ethic which is arguably the nucleus of any potential success. Do not let this get to you for your diligent hand will be an advantage to you soon enough.

You need to get use to people judging you now and accept this. It will never change people will always form their own opinions of you without knowing you. You have to say fuck them and whatever criteria they judge you by and remember that they are humans just like you no better or worse. Just remember those who judge aren’t perfect and even thought they may parade around like they are EVERYBODY has skeletons in the closet.

You also need to remember the reason you are losing weight. If you are comfortable being fat then be fat fuck anybody who has a problem. Never change for other people period. If you want to lose weight for yourself then by all means go for it. There is nobody who can stop you from losing the weight but you. Use any rude and snide remarks as motivation I am sure you aren’t as ugly as you would think and you haven’t seen ugly until you’ve seen me =). I just think if you really want to lose weight then go for it and when those people who made fun of you see you and try to compliment you say “no thanks I don’t need your compliments your former remarks about me were enough”. I think you can lose weight its not as hard if you pace yourself and realize it will take time and discipline by next march you could be a twig!

I know you are going through things but at such a young age I can’t tell you that suicide at this point in your life is a choice you should consider. At least wait until you are an adult. The reason I say this is because you are so young at 14 you probably haven’t experienced things that will be so much fun for you. The prom, your first kiss (im just assuming forgive me if im wrong) , Your first boy friend, graduating from High school, and so much more…. Just try to get past High school and make it to adulthood and by then I’m sure you will have forgotten all about how you felt when you were 14.

Also 1 more thing….watch whole you divulge your personal information to. Even people you 100% trust will spill your secrets given the right motivation. It would be better to keep a hidden diary and express your feeling in there or hell even come on here! there are people on here that are more understanding and we don’t know you so there is no harm done by spilling your guts….I won’t judge you and pretty much all of the community here won’t either.