Well..I am 27 years old. I feel cold inside, like I have no emotions or tears left. My heart feels like it has a large hole in it. I seriously have no friends or no one to talk to. All I ever do is work & stay home. I live in a country side of Alabama & nothing makes me happy anymore. I have thought about killing myself a few times but I know if I do then I will go straight to hell. But on the other hand, It feels like this life on earth is hell. I play guitar & drums for almost all of my life, and I do not even find joy in that anymore. I am not ugly, I am very clean cut type of guy but it just seems my life is empty. I feel I have no purpose on this life. I do wished I was dead. I feel I would be better off dead. I really enjoy helping other people & having reading some of these posts by other people really breaks my heart. But I do know how you all feel. I work two jobs, One as a Armed Security Officer & I am a part time Police Officer. Sounds great right? Wrong! I am so miserable in my life…if there is a God, then I really wished he would come back soon. I just wished I could find joy, happiness, something that will full fill my emptyness. A couple of years back, I would just sit in my room and cry and cry and cry for hours. And now, I barely can cry anymore..Maybe I ran out of tears? No one in my family likes me, and I do not even believe anyone likes me. I just really wished I would have never been born. I wished I was dead and be better off dead.
I found this site on accident..so maybe getting my feelings out to someone that may actually care, may help…who knows. Anyway..goodnight all
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Im so sorry you feel that way. most of us on here can relate. i know I can. some days it is just to much. some times you need others to hear you. i know. your not alone.
you’re still young and you have a decent job. maybe you should take a little vacation.
Thank you both for the replies and taking the time to read it.
i just know I kinda relate other then a lot of awful shit in my life from out side I have 2 beautiful kids a husband a pretty decent life.. even before stuff got bad though.. I just always felt that same hollow way… depressed sad unfulfilled and now.. and Im sure living in the stix can’t help. Im stuck in bumblefuck GA and Im from NY and that SURE is not helping. I hope you feel better knowing there are a lot of us out there.
Gloomygirl you seem to have a big heart and seem compassionate. Which alot of people lack now days. I wished I could find something to make me feel better…who knows. I have been feeling like this for past 12 years or so. Well just know I am here for you as well. If you ever like to text me you can. Just send me message and I will give you my cell number. Again thank you a lot!!
well if you would like you can email me. gloomygirl1313@gmail.com I think you will find a lot of people on this site are compassionate because we are all sharing smiler feelings of despair and hopelessness.
Thank you. Mine is ktpd614@outlook.com.
you have mail 🙂
Ok 🙂 reply to you very soon
I sent you email back to ya
I live in AL too man, this place is just shit, need to get out. I’ve never really understood how people hate being alone, it just keeps you away from problems. Try looking at being alone as a good thing, in my opinion its upsides outweigh the bad.
Yeah alabama does suck very bad