how good moments before sleep feels. i feel like finally its ending, finally i’m going to be unconscious. i feel like tomorrow is gonna be totally different; i’m gonna be totally different. actually i feel glad that tomorrow is not gonna be ‘me’, it will be somebody else who will wake up and face all the struggles. me is ending today. its almost like suicide, only there is no fear or selfishness attached because of trust. and yet its me who wakes up again, with all the same sameness. do i anymore belong here? is this a new escape trick my mind is playing?
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I remember hearing something along the lines of “every passing day is an opportunity to turn it all around”, your post somewhat reminded me of that line. I know what you mean tho, to me sleeping is the only time i can let go, and most of the times i wish i wouldn’t wake up.
Sleep is wonderful. Yes it is so freeing when you feel yourself getting tired and know that this day is soon going to be over. I love dreaming, much more interesting things happen in my dreams than in my real life of no friends and nothing to do. In contrast to the joy of falling asleep, I hate when I wake up. Sleep feels like this precious thing that you try not to let slip through your fingers. Sometimes you can turn over in bed, and start to feel like you’re waking up, but manage to let yourself fall back again. But eventually that moment comes, almost like a sudden shattering, when you cross that line and know that you’ve been kicked out of sleep world. You’ve become conscious, you feel your body below you, you check what time it is, you realize you have to go to the bathroom. The fun sleep is over and you’ve got a whole long day ahead of you to deal with. I wish I could just sleep.