ive decided to bottle things up again. ive decided that it doesnt matter if im breaking, broken, or perfectly fine. it doesnt matter that i want a hug. it doesnt matter that i feel so broken and in pain at times. it doesnt matter. me. i dont matter. my feelings dont matter. everything about me doesnt matter. what matters if you guys are okay. if you are okay good. i dont matter. it doesnt matter. my life. my feelings. my pain. it doesnt matter at all. what so ever.
ive also decided that im going to start lying. if you ask me how i am ill lie. or ill just ignore it. it doesnt mean if im good or bad. it just means you dont need to know my status because it doesnt matter. if you ask me ill lie or i just wont answer. because when it comes to me nothing matters really. i dont matter.
ive decided to bottle things up. to lie again. its for the best. its better for everyone. then you dont worry about me. then you dont panic. i dont see why you even worry about me. i dont see why you even care. am i that special? am i that special that i should live?
just three words: i dont matter. two more: you do
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LetItGo, you matter to me! Keep writing what you f.eel. That is important. No lies. Lies just keep snowballing and make living life that much more difficult.
They wouldn’t be big lies… Just how I am… Little white lies…
Little white lies snowball into big black ominous all encompassing clouds that blind out the light
LetItGo, can you write to Mr. Koji? I think your words could be of comfort to him.
~~~just three words: i dont matter. two more: you do~~~
we are all one being, you can’t separate the two. It’s the reason that people care for you, because they see something of themselves in YOU.
at the core of the center of the earth, there is only one face, yo
You matter alright, more than you may ever know. Your lies, they will be seen through, the people here care too much. It doesn’t matter if you’re special or not, what matters is that we are each a part of your life and we care very much.
Lastly, I don’t matter. Never have. Never will. And that’s just the way I like it.
In the end nothing matters, no one is special, and we all lie and bottleup things in a way or another. The thing is that each person gives things importance as they see it fit. So the three words you said… well, you do matter to us, and you say we matter to you. It’s just a way of seeing it from another point.
I meant *it’s just a matter of seeing it from another point*, sorry