Wow, where to begin? I guess i can start off by saying this is not normal for me. Iv always been that girl that’s strong when nobody else is. Iv had straight As through high school and iv participated in a lot of sports and other activities. Iv been through many relationships, being dumped and doing the dumping. I lost the love of my life about 4 months ago, he was my rock, my support. He came into my life when things weren’t good at home, just when i was ready to say i couldn’t take it anymore.. the last 3 years iv depended on him. he won’t speak to me, his family (that was closer to me then my own) went on their way withouy me. I’m at a loss for words, a loss for what to do. iv been seriously depressed and think every night of how badly i don’t want to be here anymore. This isn’t a normal breakup.. i feel so alone. I hate this feeling. I feel like without him (and his family) there’s no point in being here anymore..
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You have participated in sports and other activities, maybe you can contact people / friends you have met in those activities and ask if they want to hang out (?), so you won’t feel lonely 🙂
I have a lot of friends, and i hangout with them a lot.But even when I’m with people i still feel alone. Everyone sees me and thinks I’m ok. iv never been the type to let people know how i feel bc i don’t like worrying people or being a burden. I just feel like giving up, iv tried to be happy.. but i can’t without him.
I think many of us here are that same way – “I was strong when nobody else is.” – and we need to stop trying to be like that. We all have weaknesses even if we don’t show it.
It sucks but I think you will just have to move on from him. I’ve never felt for anyone like I did one of my exes from almost 20 years ago but over time it definitely doesn’t hurt as much. The quote I like is “Don’t be sad that it’s over, be happy that it happened”
Moving on sounds like an easy way out of this, but after 4 months i continue to get worse and worse.. i thought it would get easier with time, but its only getting worse. i try to pretend I’m better off i even try to make myself belive I’m ok but how do i continue on when its only getting harder? I can’t help but cry everynight, dream about him every night. i loved him, but even worse i depended on him.
i can relate and i know you still won’t believe me but it can be done – though yes i still think quite fondly of my ex. i remember they dumped me unexpectedly, i didn’t eat regularly for a month. i never thought i’d ever feel love for someone, and i did and i didn’t want it to end. it will be hard and it will take time. *hugs*
Thanks! The virtual hug was much needed! 🙂 I just needed this to be able to actually. say how i feel. since I’m so used to keeping it al in.
I could have written this post, just switching the male and female role.
In my case, I had a whore who slept with half the town for more than 6 years while married to me.
I tried to end it, came close, might have actually died for a while.
Write me, we have a lot in common
Flwaterguy99 (at) gmail (dot) com
Wrote you, waiting for a reply. excited to talk to somebody who feels the same way.