i dont think i should even feel so bad. but im deppresed. i feel like im falling falling or rolling downhill painfully and it sucks. i can barely avoid the thoughts of suicide, when im eating, with friends, trying to sleep or any other moment at all. i just cant keep them out. im so afraid ill start to like them and eventually ACTUALLY love the thought of death. whats barely holding me in place is a caring girlfriend, the knowledge that i CAN get better and the mere thought that im human and i can BE.
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Welcome softnecks,
It seems to me this is your first post. Can you share more information about your past? When about did your depression start, can you recall what really stated your depression? How about more on your wonderful girl and how she helps you immensely?