Im sorry for all that I have done. I cannot express how sorry I am about the inconvenience about the car crash, Im so sorry for all that I have done to everyone. The thing that makes me the most upset is that it could have been so much worse; I would not have been able to live with myself knowing that I put my friends in the hospital. I do not want to hurt people I want to help others; I do not know how I can forgive myself. Simple I do not think that I can forgive myself. Â I love you all so much, but I cannot keep going. I try to do so much for other people, but I cannot do everything. I cannot make people happy; I only hurt people even more. Im sorry. I have to do one thing for myself, which is why I did what I did. Im sorry if I hurt you even more, but please do not feel sad because I have been wanting to die for so long. Rugby team you have touch my life so much, you each have brought so much in my life. I love all of you, you have taught me so much and made my last days the happiest times of my life. Family I love you I could not have asked for a better family you taught me how to be strong, but ultimately in the end I was never strong enough.
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Hey! Stop, you are strong enough! If you weren’t strong, you wouldn’t have gotten this far. You are strong, and you can get stronger 🙂
I see you are a person with great wisdom, and i believe you can overcome, but I think you may need to move to a place of greater acceptance, of yourself, and the circumstances of life.
TRUE: you cannot make others happy, especially if that is not their desire. Accepting that is wisdom.
TRUE: you may not be able to accept and forgive yourself–on your own strength and ability–especially if your experience in this area is spotty; BUT, that does *not* mean it is not possible with the help of a higher power and the support of others.
You sound like you are i torment, and I’m sorry about that, but just because your pain exceeds your ability to cope today, does not mean there are not any solutions to make positive shifts. You may just not be able to see them now, and some of those solutions may not become apparent until next week or next month.