You probably couldn’t care less to other people’s struggles because you got your own problems, but maybe we’re facing the same situation.I’m almost 18 now, and I’ve been struggling with my appearance since 13.It’s one of countless reasons why I feel depressed and suicidal.I’m a skinny pale shit, I have acne for 5 years, I hate my hair, and so on.People are always criticizing me : “You’re ugly!”; “You should get a tanning, ugly corpse!”; Your acne blemishes are horrible”; “You’re so skinny and look like a girl, an ugly girl!”.And the worst it’s that it’s truth, a harsh bitter truth.I try to ignore their harsh words, but I figured out that I’m not okay with myself, regardless of their opinion.I dunno, sometimes I think that I’ll be the ugly duckling forever, it hurts me so.And there are hundreds of millions just like me, crying and feeling bad.Hope?.All I see it’s closed doors.
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Im not facing the same situation but i did back then. Acne goes away, and paleness isn’t that much of a deal. When i was 18 i suffered from both + being obese. I ended up turning around the obesity and acne bit a couple of years later but i have to say, people will always find something to pick on you. If you are skinny or obese they will mock you for it. If you are average? they will mock you too.
Change whatever you want about you IF you want to, in order for you to feel comfortable with yourself. Heck, i know some people that would kill to be real skinny and pale.
Also, i know it’s hard, but try to stop paying attention to people that mock you out of things they shouldn’t even care about. Even if you turn everything around there’s always going to be a couple of idiots willing to pick on you out of being bored, no matter what you do.
I’ve always been hideously ugly, well, since just before puberty. We have a hereditary condition in my family that upsets the proper growth of the face bones. My mom has it and has been ridiculed for her looks. I got it much more severe than my mom or anyone in my family. I don’t know how to describe my looks other than “bizarre”, “inhuman”, and repulsive. I am devastated when I see how it looks like god carefully sculpted beautiful faces for the beautiful people, and with smooth skin on top of that, and then with me and the other ugly people he just let nature have her evil way with us. As far as the ugly duckling that’s always been a favorite story of mine, and used to give me a lot of hope when I was a school child being mocked and hated every day. They called me “disgusting.” They made up a new word even, “fugly” they called me, and a boy called me “it”. They liked to stick trash in my hair, and had fits about being “partners” with me when we needed activity partners. One day a teacher pitied me and said to the class that I would grow someday and was just a late bloomer. That gave me some hope but alas it was a false hope. My adult body is dwarfed. The ugly duckling thing is sometimes true. I have seen some somewhat ugly kids grown into fine looking adults. But sometimes it is not true, especially if the cause of ugliness lies in the facial bone structure like in my case. I was an ugly duckling now I’m an ugly duck. I can’t say anything good about ugliness, its an affliction and a curse, but I can say that I am underserving of it, and I know I deserve to be beautiful-looking more than all those beautiful people who love to abuse me.
im here if u need someone to talk too god if i only told u the things they called me back in the day but school is a pit of sharks anyways most school aged kids dont have anything good to say they live in a cliche a lie where they have to hurt others to fit in and feel welcomed but they dont know about people like us who have to come to a site like this to talk its pretty sad how we try so hard to be loved and fit in and we are on an fing suicide site??? Where is our hope and love i guess we have it in each other i hope u get back on here id like to talk to u some more and honestly the word ugly is so overused that it has become archaic in my book of terminology hold your head up high and know im sending you positive energy i can feel your pain so i hope u give me a chance to meet you and be there i dont care what you look like you are still a human being and werent just put here by accident people will always find a reason to hate but not everyone can find a reason to love
you know something those people who talk to you this way will never understand how strong you truly are how iron willed you have to be just to make it through the day these people who talk to you this way will never understand they will never become caring or loving people they will always judge and judge but who gave them the hammer and the right let me tell u something dear. when i walk my legs pop they are bowed on each side so i cant go to the military because they are afarid id get killed my chest has become deformed from medication i take for depression so i may not know exatly how you feel but i can assure you i have an understanding for you and guess what those geniuses don’t know acne goes away it is a natural occurence for men and women of all ages i used to be called pizza face in high school for my acne until i dropped out one day and told the entire school on intercome to f themselves so please keep hope dear im here if u need to talk not out of pitty but out of love and understanding give me a chance