Do you ever get the angry side of being suicidal ? i was just surrounded by people telling me that i’m perfectly fine and theres nothing wrong, the same people who spoon feed me the pills that are designed to basically make you humble in your intolerable situations, and they laugh and poke you as if waiting for a punchline in some massive bloody joke.
my mind instantly went to that place, which most of us probably call home, and i thought.
if i’m willing to end my own life in the most brutal of ways
then what’s stopping me from massacring my current tormentors ?
its a little heavy right now, but still trying to calm down and figure it out.
Hows you guys 🙂 ?
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I don’t know if this is better or worse but the people around you are only doing what they think is right, what they know to have worked or helped others. Truth is they probably don’t care enough to be singling you out and laughing at you.
It’s their job. They go home. They forget about you. They are dealing with their own crap.
I know you are angry at them and even if they are this evil gang that’s purpose in life is to make you feel horrible what service are you doing by killing them? They will be dead. They will be in a state of non existence, like you.
All you would be doing is hurting their family, making their lives more stressful. By taking your life you are already hurting your loved ones. Why cause pain to people you don’t even know?
The mind can be confusing and emotions are horrible sometimes. Life just seems so fleeting and stupid there doesn’t seem to be any point. But that is how we feel.
“”Ever get the angry side of suicidal? Yes. I’ve never done anything about it, other than choose my legal drug of choice to escape, but yes.
Yes, I’m furious quite often. I do so much not to show people how suicidal and horrible I feel since it’s such an inconvenience for them. No one does anything of the sort for me, of course. Nobody shuts up to please me or keep me from blowing up.
And what you said about pills is so damn true.