Here I am, once again, depressed. Reality finally caught me and punched me hard in the face. But this time, I have nobody to talk about it. I’m so complicated, people get sick and tired of me. I mean, people don’t really care for me. And when there’s someone who actually does, I wish that person didn’t. It’s stupid isn’t it? I need help, but I push aside everyone who tries to help. And I say “tries” because I’m such a fucking mess and I’m the only one who understands myself, and still, I can’t figure out who am I. And if I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me, no one else will.
I spent the last 30 minutes trying to think about what to write, but I don’t see the point anymore. I don’t even know where to begin. I’ll just keep suffering in silence.
Sorry for wasting your time. I’m really sorry. I won’t bother again. I promise.
4 comments
First off you have nothing to be sorry for – you haven’t wasted anyone’s time, you’re a person – you emote, you have a soul, you feel things that are exclusive and unique to you. I get punched in the face daily – it sucks, I’m sorry the shadow won today (Kelly Clarkson song….) To me it seems that if someone “tries” it’s not that you don’t want them to, but that they aren’t trying in the right way which makes you want to push them away…. anyways feel free to chat….. Don’t be sorry for being yourself – be sorry for the people who can’t handle it or have to judge you to make themselves feel better.
Thank you.
It makes me feel better knowing that there’s someone who understands.
I feel ***exactly*** like you. So you are not alone.
this was not a waste of my time. Also please dont be sorry. KeepGoing made a good reply