Married, merely just around 5 months ago.. I am kinda unsettled, doesn’t know driving a car much, and although I am optimistic, but sometimes I do realize that it’s been long since I smiled from heart, and this causes me a feeling of helplessness and suicidal tendency.
Till around 1 month of marriage, it was going smooth and happily, but after that, I did some mistakes, and those caused some problems in my married life. I love my wife, but she says she has less attachment towards me, my family or even my city. She is suffering from depression and many times she suffers from pain, which becomes severe, some times at night. She is having medicines, but the pain is still there.. no improvement.. I am trying to support her in everything she does, as much as I can, but I feel that my efforts are going in vain, as she still has the same problem of pain, and pessimism, and she still says that her present life is too bad compared to the past life.. I feel so helpless sometimes. I know it was initially my fault, but now I am trying to support her, sometimes she realizes, but sometimes she becomes annoyed and short tempered towards me..  What to do.. Many times I become very heavy at heart, and feel low… I need love, but am not getting much.. Seems sometimes that I am not needed in this world.. I am very emotional,but  sometimes pervert I become, which I need to eradicate.. it’s becoming my enemy.. She says she needs emotional & moral support, but she is not getting much from me, though I try every time to be with her in full support.. Feeling so helpless… How to bring smile back  on her face and mine.. I love her so much, but if I don’t get some love back, how much more patience can I have..  Life seems useless at times..
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Hey there hotkiller.
You can’t put off a fire if you’re burning yourself, can you? The most important thing in a relationship is to be there for the other person. This doesn’t mean necessarily to be physically next to her every moment, but to make her know that anytime she needs you, you will be there. That is Love, capital.
If she’s in pain perhaps she needs vacation with you, to share some relax time and heal each other. What do you think?
She has many expectations towards me.. And although I try to fulfill some of them, but still many times she complains.. And we have already done vacation with each other, but not so enjoyable, as I am of not so jolly nature, like she wants.. And like I said in my post, she clearly says that she has least attachment with me, my family or my city.. It hurts sometimes.. I am there for her, and I have told her that, but still, no good reaction.. I am there for her, when she suffers from pain at night.. She tells me to rub her hand, and I try to show her that I love her, and am there for her, in any possible way, but, she says she doesn’t have much feeling for me, though when I am down, she is there to support me.. When my mood is off, she tries to cheer me up.. but why is she saying that she has no feelings.. It hurts sometimes, and it’s getting hard to have more patience…