The title describes me completely…I’m a worthless idiot,a pathetic piece of shit…
I fail at everything I do.I do nothing right.Everyone who trusted in me ended up being disappointed by my worthlessness.My parents,my relatives,my friends,my ex girlfriend…And the list of people who I’ve disappointed continues…
Just to show you how much more I can fail,I’ve even failed at dying.Yes,I failed at dying.Two weeks ago I have slit my wrists,but I,being the pathetic idiot I am,was afraid that cutting ”too deep” will give me too much pain…See?I can’t even kill myself right.I had to go to the E.R. and I looked like the complete idiot I am when they asked me what had happened…
A list of my disorders:
-Bipolar disorder
-Severe major depression
-Post-traumatic stress disorder
-Anti-social personality disorder
-Anorexia
-Extreme social anxiety
I also have a vision condition that keeps worsening,and it will ultimately drive me blind…
I used to do drugs and alcohol to temporarily escape pain back when I lived with my mother’s parents,but now that is not an option anymore,since my parents would notice me taking drugs/alcohol.
The only reason I had left to live has disappeared 5 months ago…The only person who ever understood me completely,left me…And it was all my fault…I fucked the relationship up,like I do with everything…I break everything,I can’t keep anything for long before I,in my idiocy,break it…
Only thing I want to know is where I can get a firearm from in Germany.
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Have you ever considered you may be the sane one… And everyone else continues to be slaves to the mind of man?
My two cents: you get it. They don’t.
So now, all we suicidals have to do is stop buying into the society bullshit… And live our REAL truth… And if that means you need to live away from society… Then so be it.