I didn’t ask for any of this. I was born and my path was thrust upon me. I am not looking for your approval or sympathy because I simply no longer give a fuck. I hate people. I started out as a kid does; Innocent and gullible. I didn’t realize that I would be despised by family and friends for recieving gifts that I DID NOT ask for. I don’t believe in evolution but I am not religious in any manner. I was probably the MOST DEPRESSED PERSON on this site a few years ago. I have been here a while… I hate life and I really wish for a moment that people weren’t so jejune so that I could get through to them but…
I lurk this site and read all the shit from people and while I empathize with you I really can’t say I feel sorry for most of you because in reality YOU ONLY WANT TO HEAR WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR. I’m not saying anything is your fault …because it’s not…you are here by no will of your own… At the end of the day this shit doesn’t matter people. Life has been around for billions if not trillions of centuries…. O_O yeah reread that and then process how many years that is…you can’t…I can’t either…all the pointless arguing about GOD is ridiculous…I welcome you to attack religion for God knows I love a good jesus joke. IJS none of it matters.
I hate my family… I have no friends…and the sad part is? you would think since I am described as “attractive” by my peers that I would have a loving family and all the things that seem to come with good looks….man I am HOMELESS right now…not because I am lazy…it’s because I decided to take a felony for a friend trying to be a good friend to him I sacrificed my future and now I am paying oh so dearly for it…where is the “friend” now? man your guess is as good as mine. I don’t want to live anymore. I don’t want kids and t I thought because I was ugly on the outside that people wouldn’t like me….no no no…it’s because when you are truly HONEST with people…unfiltered raw honesty? they do NOT like it. They can’t accept OBJECTIVE reality..they want to stay in their little subjective bubbles and carry on without making to much noise to arouse any trouble….
FUCK THAT
I am a “criminal” and a valedictorian too… I am not proud of the fact that I am now labeled a criminal. I am ostracized from the work force so what fucking choice do I have except to get on silk road or on the corner and make a few bucks? you tell me? what… school? lol you try applying for school with my record…. and lets be clear I wanted BETTER for myself as a child…I wanted MORE…but I didn’t have the support or the family to back my talents and turn them into cash…you may feel like that is an excuse but please get to know me before you make that assumption. I feel nothing but ANGER now… Anger keeps me motivated to get so fucking rich that I can BUY the system and tear it down. Money. Money. Money
All we need is money… we can fight back but they set the system up so that you cannot do it unless you BEAT THEM AT THEIR OWN GAME…so if you want to opt out and commit suicide I won’t judge you because I’ve been there and I am STILL there…but for those of us who have something inside left to give? I say we give it until we have nothing left… have a good day and smoke something
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Do you think that you would be able to reconcile that within yourself?
If you were truly able to “buy the system and tear it down…” are you certain you would not instead employ its advantages for your own personal gains? It’s easy to say you would do the right thing, but if you really found yourself in that situation… the choice might not be quite so simple.
I feel like i understand your position man, and you probably already guessed i’m not one who would blame you for being targeted by bullshit your whole life. It’s not only what we make it, it’s also where and to whom we’re born, and stuff that happens along the way, which is rarely entirely up to only our own preference, if ever at all. There’s a reason the word “circumstance” exists.
I’ve been sick with anger and passionate conviction lately. I’ve been applying my hard-earned logic razors to the cannabis conundrum, because i’ve seen some angles, some glimmers of hope, in that we could pretty much gather all the pissed off victims and impose an ultimatum: be reasonable or be removed.
We, the Rightfully Free and Individually Sovereign Citizens of the United States of America, do indeed still retain that authority. We just need someone to draw up a new declaration that can’t be twisted. If the only choice they allow us is between compliant misery or revolution… people will inevitably get their fill of submission to tyranny, and eventually change their minds.
They’re just people. We can stop playing their games, and force them to play ours. It’s just that most people don’t realize this, and we need majority numbers to make it work. Lots of people are just too afraid to lose what they’ve got to lose. Words can be as powerful as the audience allows.
Repeat after me: “We, The People, hold these Truths to be Self-Evident…”
At some point, we each have to realize and accept that we are all going to die someday. I don’t want to spend my life submitting to tyranny without resistance, do you? Does anyone? Those who won’t educate themselves, and won’t stand up for their own rights… do not deserve to retain them. Meanwhile, lots of people are indeed willing and driven to do exactly that.
first of all man, im happy to hear from you, you are and always will be one of my favorite users, and a good friend. That in it self make me sad to see your not doing too well. I amnt hear to give you sympathy, so your gonna have to settle with my respect and oppinion. I like to think its not about how we get what we get, some people are just plain lucky, others work hard and get what they put in, personally i dont think it matters, its what you do with what you have and why you do it that matters. I also believe family isnt who we are blood related to but who is there for us when we need them and who imbodies all we need them to. my family is some of my close friends and members of this sight, because they are who i choose my family to be, not my blood relatives. It sucks your family and friends cant appreciate you for the awsome man you are but thats their loss man, you choose who your family is bro. Genius is often despised in its time man, because its not understood and makes people face their own short commings.
As for the part about lurking and people hearing what they want to hear. yeah i agree with that, i often think no one want the actuall truth they just want thier own truth parroted back, but to be honest if you tell everyone your actual truth, most people would never talk to you again, or at least i know thats what would happen to me lol.
Good lucks and a good brain have to have a trade of, people like us dont get breaks, you can be smart and good looking but bottom line the universe or whatever has to shit on you, life cannt be too good, would cause a convergence of parrallel universes and an ending of life as we know it… As for taking a fellony…. bro come on man, why was it better you take it than your mate? I understand the desire to protect people we believe to be our friends, and as suicidal people we push it further than normal people becasue we care less but fuck man, brutal honesty? it was a stupid move to tank your future, lifes hard enough getting by without that. Tho i am sorry your friend ditched you after you took the fall, thats a dick move, unforgivable.
We do what we have to to survive bro, you take what you can and you make something of it, your smart enough. so what if you have to go silk road, so what if your on a street corner (i hope ur saying weed and not yourself) in this life you have only a few choices, you refuse to take your lot and check out, you take your lot and make do or you take your lot and make it into something even better. I get the desire to tare it all down man, believe me i do, hell i write about it all the time, the system creates suicidal people but instead of fixing the system they brain wash us into conforming, drug us if that dosnt work. cunts.
Money is bullshit man, you can have all of it and it wont change a thing, sure you think it may make you happy for a while but it wont last for long. we are all created with a hole inside us, a hole that in oredr to be content in life we must find what is missing that fits the hole, each person is different but that is the goal, to fill the hole.
We all have something left inside to give bro, even the worst of us can still bring something into the world that will make someone elses life better. There is a quote, that i always think of, its from batman after bruce falls down the well as a child his father asks him
“why do we fall bruce? So we can learn to pick ourself up again” that line has always stayed me.
You know im glad your alive bro, just wish you were too.
Peace and Love brother,
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what was jesus’ favorite dancing style? stake-dancing