You know when you’re struggling. When you flit between completely numb and vomit inducing crying & pain where you can’t get up off the floor. When you have no one. And in the darkness you try to reach out to someone. Open up just a little. Try to explain why you are what you are, why you feel what you feel and why you hurt the people around you even though you don’t mean to. And all you get back is they’re ‘disappointed’?
I never trust people and this has reminded me why. I can’t form any kind of relationship, even a simple friendship is beyond me. I just thought for once there may have been someone who might have cared. I’m back to being numb again so I guess it doesn’t matter now.
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Yes, I do know. Sorry you do as well.
Sorry for you too, but thank you for understanding – it means something to me.