Fuck my life. I want to die. I feel so alone and empty. There is so much pain it is unbearable. All day I pretend to be fucking okay and I am not. I go to work and do everything but I am not okay. I smile and laugh and say, “Yes, I’m doing good,” when its all a bloody lie. There is no end to this pain. It is unrelenting, stalking me through every moment of every day, reaching out to suffocate me with its gnarly hands. I am a shell.
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I understand – always pretending and saying the same thing over and over to people who aren’t really listening. Sometimes that in itself can make things worse… Just know that there are people here who will understand, or at the very least listen without judging. They get it. You don’t have to pretend to be okay. One of the things I’ve learned over the past months is that you have to let yourself feel what you’re feeling and accept it. And then hopefully you can focus on finding a way through. I’m here to talk anyhow, best wishes 🙂