So after the end of last summer, my life turned around….
So I’m off to 7th grade, my first year of middle school. During that time I was bullied a lot. My brother also made this new friend who didn’t like me very much. After that my brother was also kinda a bully to me. And the things they would say and do to me made me feel sad and angry and never deal with it.
So the stress and depression builds. It’s just sitting inside of me like a bo going to blow up. I also have this 7 year old sister who won’t ever leave me alone and it just adds to the stress.
So 5 months ago, I started to do self harm and u still do today. My friend saw my wrist one day and told me to stop,so I said I’d try.
But then last week, she looked at my wrist to see that us recently done it, and these were get exact words, “wow, it’s hopeless,no matter what you cut yourself. ” that made me feel sad,that I was hope less.
So I said, “you know what your right, it’s hopeless. ” So I stormed off. Add I was waking she yelled, “fine, go home see if I care” add I got to my door u said, “oh I’m not going home, I’m going to Heaven.”
Later, at about 1am when everyone was asleep,I decided to kill myself. Right as I was about to do it, my 7 year old sister walked in the bathroom. She knew exactly what I was doing. She broke down in tears and said, “please don’t you have so much to live for.”
I ended up not killing myself. But I think about trying again. Please I need some one to talk to. Because I fee like I only have One Try Left……
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You feel like you have nobody in your life, but you do. Think about this for a second, your seven year old sister broke down, saying you had something to live for. Doesn’t that make you think? And while your friend may have said she doesn’t care anymore, you know in the back of your head they do. They just don’t know what to do anymore, just like you.
Hey I’m going to 8th grade and I’m kinda like you as I’m suicidal,bullied, and self harm. And I realized that if you end it now you might never know. The time your in now may seem as a void like it will never end but it will. And when it does there may be something great. I don’t know about you but that chance keeps me here. Just imagine something really great for the future. Maybe it will help you too.
Can we please read a book on how to deal with bullies. The world is full of them. They are the most weakest bastards. Really. They are! They pray on people who seem week. So step up and lean some tips to stop it. If you kill yourself because you were bullied, they have won. you have lost and the rest of us are stuck here with the bullies. If you commit suicide, your sister will be devastated forever and it may even cause her to rationalize that she should do the same. Or, she will be labeled and stigmatized, racked with guilt for not being able to save you. forever! Your other brother can use a few pointers for sticking up for you so you might give him a copy of the book. Because whether a person is the victim, the bully or bystander, they have a role to play.
Here is how I teach my 7 yr. old on the topic of bullies:
1. I define physical bullies – hitting, pushing etc.
2. I define emotional and verbal bullies – sneering, name calling, excluding, etc.
3. I tell her when they say something like “your dress is stupid or your clothes are ugly” that she should in a loud voice for all around to hear: Thank you! Thank you so much for telling me that my clothes are babyish: “That was really a COOL thing to say! : I appreciate that! The key is loud! So others can hear it. AND USE THE WORD COOL. Now you’ve exposed the bully!
3. If one of them hits her, she is to hit back! period! If they corner her, she is to pick up a stick, a rock, or any weapon and beat bloody daylights out of them. Win or loose. They will not expect this reaction and will not set themselves up for it again.
4. When someone else is being bullied physically, stand in between the bully and victim and tell the bully to stop and you will not tolerate bullying behavior.
5. When someone else is being bullied verbally, to speak up and say hey that’s not COOL. Leave him / her alone man!
6. When someone is excluded at the lunch table, playground, interactive games, work table in class, to say, hey “Joe” or “Jane” come on over with us. and get up to find an extra chair for them or scoot over to let them sit next to YOU.
7. Do not tattle tale unless someone’s life is in serious danger.
8. Laugh at yourself—a bully might say oh there’s the nerd because you get the highest grades in class–in which case reply: yeah well, i’m not so lucky that i have to study harder than anyone else just to remember anything. your lucky that you can ace this stuff so much quicker than me.
A bully might say- wow, you really are a slow runner or sucky batter, and you will laugh at yourself and say your right man, i think i was born with 2 left feet, and I wish I get practice as little as you but those the breaks, huh! This technique diffuses the statement and puts the bully off guard. And they, typically will at a loss of words and likely not look to you to embarrass you again. But when they identify someone else, now you have to show leadership and step in–see above.
7. Do not be a victim! Do not be a bully! Do not be a bystander! Ever! These are the cardinal rules for taking control not only of your own bully experience but changing the environment for everybody. Soon, you will be the hero not the wimpy kid getting kicked around and all the others will follow you and flock to you.
I’m sure there are others like you who are being bullied on one of these levels just like you,
I want you to react in one of the above ways and begin to display leadership for a NO BULLY ZONE! And, I want you to have a zero tolerance for bullying you!
Of what’s left in the summer, I want you to buff up, lift weights, play some sports outside, or just plain yoga or simply walk or volunteer to chop wood for the winter, or do some physical chores around the house. I want you to use your physical body in active ways so that you can build endurance and strength in case you have to kick some ass come this fall when school resumes. You don’t have to win–but you have to put up a good fight and if your body has never been challenged to do these exercise or physical work, it will be a bit of a shock to you.
I want you to carry yourself with confidence. Don’t engage in stare downs but speak and look directly at the bully and everyone with confidence and in a normal tone and volume of voice. Do this despite school rules or your parent’s rules. People who teach kids to turn the cheek when slapped by a bully are setting the kids up to a victim. It’s a self-righteous bullshit approach to make themselves look holier than the rest of us. Meanwhile the poor kid reaches a state of despair like you.
Next read a book on it and learn any other tips that I may have overlooked.
I hope that you will repost of your progress. There are no shortage of kids out here being bullied. We need some success stories!