An Introduction

Hello all. This is my first post so please bear with me. I am a 35 yo female struggling with several mental illnesses including chronic depression and Borderline personality disorder. Im not sure how i should be anymore because everything i have tried f-ed things up. I finally have gotten to the point i understand im not lazy, faking, seeking attn or looking for an excuse. However, it does not take away the Emptiness inside. Nor does it take away the feelings of wanting to commit suicide. I don’t understand why even on my good days small things can happen and i think i dont deserve to live. i took a large overdose in 2008; i really dont know how i survived. Now i fear i will do it again someday. i have come to.the conclusion that suicide will be how i die. I hope one day soon the scientists will stop studying fruit flies and worry about this illness that has taken so many. The death of Robin Williams was just another reminder that no matter how long we fight or how hard we fight, we can still lose the battle. Im glad i found this site because it may be the comfort i have been looking for. It may also be a way for me to help someone else.