Life is Funny

Does sadness have an age? Does it mature like wine? Is there a definition for true sadness? I guess sadness is defined within itself. Sure I’m 18 and I can safely say that I haven’t experienced life by any means. That doesn’t really matter though because experiencing this pain is enough. People who try to reason with me never understand. They treat my condition as something that you shrug off because ‘nothing really bad has happened’. That is so far from the point. I’m sure you all understand though, what it’s like to feel so depressed without any reason and that honestly makes it hurt even more. It makes the pain invisible and makes it harder to track down what is causing it and put it to rest. I feel like I’m constantly chasing a tail I don’t have. The last two months, every aspect of my life has decided to slide. Education, Social Life and Work. Nothing big or major ever happens to put me down. Just a seemingly infinite amount of small things constantly pushing me closer to the edge without any sign of letting up. Small things that I can never keep track off. That’s why it feels like nothing’s there. That’s the closest I can come to explaining to people why I’m sad. Ending it causes pain in the form of a splash effect. Harming everyone close. I’m not a selfish person but I guess if I ever had to be, now’s the time.