I talked to someone today and he helped me a lot. He gave me a ray of hope and a thought about something that I need to try to do, and I felt better than I had in quite a while, but… I still can’t stop crying and wanting to just end it all. I’m trying out something where I wait out the week and see if I can retrieve some money or items from the person who has been scamming me, but I don’t know if I’ll get anything back. If I do make the decision to end it, there are things that I want to have in my possession to leave for my daughter. I just don’t know what to do. I feel like I can’t go on for another second, yet I think that I need to endure this upcoming week and try my best to retrieve those things for her. I can’t believe that I’ve been so stupid. I always knew that I was a caring and vulnerable person, but stupid I can never say that I’ve been. Now I’m acting dumber by the day. I’m so thankful for this person who reached out to me, because I now feel like I have advice from someone other than myself. I’m too wrapped up in these problems to think clearly. I’m really fighting the urge to end it all today. My biggest motivation atm is to try to retrieve anything that I possibly can, any of my 28k or more importantly, my belongings like the jewellery that I want my daughter to have. And of course, I don’t want my daughter or parents to suffer or grieve for me, but truthfully I’m a huge Fuck up and they’d all be better off without the burden of me.
Oh God, I wish I didn’t exist.
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dude I am sorry to hear that you got ripped off. It happens a lot there are people out there committing every possible scam that you can imagine. But don’t let that lead to the end of your life. People would miss you if you go like that and it will be painful for them too.
try to find a way to get passed all this and carry on
Uptown234 Thank you for your encouragement. Getting ripped off isn’t the reason that I’m planning to end it. It’s just the thing that made the rest too much to handle. The cherry on top. I was barely managing before this happened, but getting robbed for all that I had left was the trigger that made suicide go from a fantasy to a an actual plan. Thanks for your message. Sorry that you’re here too.
Haven’t you reported them to the police? A private investigator or maybe even a paralegal can help you out by catching this person and handing them the justice they so greatly deserve. We can’t let scammers go unpunished.
I did make a report about the theft, but then I cancelled it. I couldn’t go through with it. The police clearly told me that they wouldn’t be able to help me retrieve anythingan that the money part was a civil case that I could file in court for and as far as the theft goes, my stuff was long gone and that stolen items are pretty much never retrieved.
I know who stole them, the same person who owes/scammed me out of all the money and if I have any chance at all of getting anything back, it’ll be through him, not the police. Or through court which takes forever and I won’t be alive long enough for that. I’ve surpassed my limit of what I can handle from life. No or very little enjoyment from anything. Every moment of my existence is another moment of pure torture that I feel forced to endure.
Cagedtiger, my heart totally goes out to you on this. I haven’t been scammed as such but I have been badly financially exploited a number of times over the years, this world is full of predators with no morals or shame unfortunately, and some of us have our natural generosity and trusting natures used against us. Losing thousands of pounds to worthless scumbags left ME feeling ashamed while they went on their merry way without a care in the world, that’s what really rankles. I haven’t got practical advice but I just wanted to say I understand some of what you’re going through and you truly don’t deserve to be in this position. Don’t let these bastards win.
Seppuku thank you so much for sharing your story with me. I’m sorry that the scamming sharks of this world were able to rob a kind and beautiful soul like you. This particular bunch just knew how to play me. It started with me helping the family to save his life, because it was difficult for me to turn away the family, crying, desperation pouring from their voices (with thousands of dollars for medical fees). Also, tho I had just met the guy who was dying maybe 10 days prior, he seemed really nice, a devoted father to 11 kids. I thought they were decent people who would be appreciative and repay me. I believed them. Big mistake. I’m so STUPID. After that I guess they saw how easy I was to manipulate and used their expertise to get every penny from me, finally setting up the robbery of my house. F… it was the last straw. the cherry on top of everything else. Who knew that an act of kindness would be the thing to drive me from suicide wishes to the actual planning of my departure? The nail in my coffin so to speak. I want to donate my organs, then be cremated tho.
How are you feeling sweetie?
Oh caged, that is one of the worst things I have ever read! That is just the absolute pits. They robbed your house! My God, what a fucking world. I’m speechless. (I had my house cleaned out by someone I took in homeless off the streets one freezing January.)
These scum are the ones who need to die caged. I am furious for you, enraged. Please try to fight the urge to die over this. And quit blaming yourself caged! You are NOT stupid…you are generous, kind and compassionate.
I got over my scumbags eventually. The shame abated. The financial damage was recovered from fairly quickly, it’s more about the damage to one’s soul. Water keeps going under the bridge. We live and we fucking learn. Excuse all the four letter words, but I feel I need to vent after reading your story caged. I don’t want you to die over this.
How am I feeling? Lol…thanks for asking caged, you are a sweetheart, but my problems are pretty insignificant right now. You are the one I am concerned about. Your daughter caged. Your lovely daughter. She won’t give a tuppenny damn about what you leave her. She’d rather you left her you.
Oh are you serious Seppuku? You take homeless in off the freezing streets and that’s the thanks that you get? Omg, now that boils my blood so much more than my situation. That really makes me angry like hell to hear, whereas as far as I’m concerned I’m just fucking depressed and feel downright stupid because I enabled them to rob me over a period of months before the actual house robbery. Ugh, the whole thing just makes me sick. I’m Such an idiot. I actually won’t even be able to pay my damn bills this month. I’d rather be deaad than wait for everything to crash down on me. I was just hoping to salvage what I could before I went. Ideally, I was hoping he’d be a man and. Come through with his promises and return my belongings and repay me so I could go back to where I was before, not loving life, but at least hanging in there. Actually where I am now shows me that where I was in say. October, wishing for death, but surviving, was a position i’d do anything to be back in again. Considering it wasn’t that great, that shows how destroyed my life is now. :'(
Thank you for listening.
Seriously, are you managing to hang in there? You’ve been on here for a while like me. Are things improving, worsening or staying about the same?
If I don’t respond anymore tonight, the pills I took knocked me out, thankfully!