I am ugly. I am rude. I am vulgar. I am fake. I am useless. I am lazy.
My life is in a mess. I feel like I’m just going through the motions, without any purpose in my life. Why does anyone even want to live, when the end result is death? What’s the point in life?
If I left, people may be upset for a while, but they will forget soon enough.
I’ve had thoughts of suicide since primary school. Yet, I’m a coward. I’m afraid of pain. I’m afraid of cutting myself. I’m afraid that sleeping pills won’t kill me but make me suffer, physically, even more.
I don’t want to live, yet I don’t want to die a painful death. How can anyone even be so picky about death?
I wouldn’t mind if one day I went to sleep, and never woke up again. Maybe that’s the best way to die.
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“If I left, people may be upset for a while, but they will forget soon enough.” Yes, you are you yourself, but what do you know? Will they really forget you soon enough?
Though I believe the purpose of my life is to change others’…I still harbour the same thoughts as ya. I wanna just….sleep forever.
Well I will tell you the truth. THe quality of your life and the meaning or purpose in your life is directly related to the choices you make with you life. You say things like your lazy, vulgar, rude, fake. Well those are things that you can CHANGE. Stop being lazy. Get up and do something with yourself. Exercise, get a job and work get out and see the world. Stop being rude to people then you can make friends and friendships can enhance your life and your perspective on life. You also can work on your appearance. Stop being vulgar and learn to be polite to people. Youe life will get better and you will become a more attractve person by your kind personality. as far as meaning in life…. I believe having a dream of something you really want to do with your life and persuing that dream is a meaingful thing. Just make sure what you want to do with your life is Good and does nobody no harm. Try to help out some other people and the Good Karma will come to you and bring you good opportunities