I hate everything

I cut myself and I do it cuz I think it would make me feel better…my girlfriend told me yesterday that she didn’t love me and that I was wasting my time with her…and that its over…i loved her so much that I would have died for her as much as her best friend…her best friend was cutting her self too…and now I finally understand y… Her best friend said she would die for me and I thought that their is only three people who care about me and my ex girlfriend is not one of them…my family doesn’t love me…they all hate me and my family got broken up from being in prison so much…my dad was deported and he came out about a week ago and he hasn’t shown up any where…my mom is ignorant and won’t listen to me…my sister is just simply a ***** btw I have all these thoughts even tho I’m 13…idc what anyone thinks of me and all I want to talk about is my feelings…i loved my ex so much that I had no idea how to explain it and all I have is 3 real friends…never mind 2 real friends…i lov them so much that they would die for me and they both cut…i just wish it would be easy to die already….i don’t want to stay in a cruel world where u get judged for cutting and get called emo….