There are so many things I want to say to the do-gooders who come here…. All I will say is this… People will be heartbroken if I die? So, I should continue to live my life so others aren’t hurt. Are you kidding me? That’s partly why I am here now… If you have no clue about thus type of suffering, please don’t say anything. Sorry. I’ve just had it.
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I hear ya, Still Lost. Sometimes, I can barely make it through the day thinking about myself and all that is happening around me… never mind what anybody else is thinking. When life is heck, it’s heck… period. I know what that’s like. Some mention that suicide may have side consequences. Often, for example, loved ones are indeed left behind. They are often devastated. I don’t fault others for counseling you that you might leave behind people who do indeed care about you. At the same time, I know how dark the days can get. With that said, SP is a nice community that can help you on those darker days.
Sometimes I think the intent of that statement isn’t to make us feel guilty, but rather, to make us feel like we matter to someone. Granted, it’s ill-conceived. I mean, hell, I’m here because I *stopped* mattering to someone who still matters a great deal to me, and it’s ripping me up. And, truly, my family would be sad, but not THAT sad. They’d get over it (and i would want them to – they aren’t bad people, and they do care – but as well-meaning as they are, they can’t fix this). I have some friendly acquaintances, most of whom are online, but no social circle or anyone who would miss me.
In any case, all other things being equal, I just self-servingly assume they’re trying to tell me I’m important and valuable to people, and it’s nice enough of them to try, even if I know they’re wrong.
Hey lost. You said it better than me! I’ve just had it. Why do people ask if you know what is causing the depression. Really? I’m just tired of the stupid questions. I will be dead in a few days and I hope my family suffers. Then, they can know what it is like to live in pain – even if its just briefly. I hope my MD who abandoned me suffers too…. Fuck them all
If you do decide to go through with it, as much as I’ll miss seeing you around, I wish you a peaceful exit. And, rightly or wrongly, I also hope you get some satisfaction in knowing that the shits who abandoned you will suffer.
Thanks, Lost. I hope it is peaceful but spectacular.
If you’ve been around for a while you may have read things I’ve posted about consequences and “collateral damage”. It’s all a matter of conscience. The down and dirty of it is when we are pushed to the limit and have to get out, how others are affected or hurt doesn’t matter. IF it does, then it plays into our whole reason for doing it.
What I think the delineation is, if we decide to do the deed just to hurt or get back at others I draw the line. If it’s the right thing for us, and purely for our own reasons we will know. I am no stranger to what you are going through but I do hope things turn around for you.
Still Lost, thank you for sharing your feelings and experience. I have ended up on this site for the same reason we all have — not seeing another way out. I understand the complications and guilt and anger with family and collateral damage. It’s all so terribly painful and fucked up.
This place, here on SP, it seems to me that you’ve found another person, or persons, who understand you to a large degree. Even though they are not in your physical life now, this is proof that there are others in this world who understand and care and can walk with you, out of the darkness and pain.
There is life outside of your reality right now and I want you so badly to try and believe that again. Continue to fight for your life and the opportunity you have to help others.
There is someone out there who needs you.