I would say not to begin cutting. What are some reasons you want to start cutting? What do you hope to achieve by cutting? And ultimately what does cutting resolve?
I have lots of experience with anxiety and distress turning physical and it can cause me to do really irrational things. Cutting is very hard to stop once you start and I hope you can avoid it. The consequences (physical, social and psychological) can be terrible. Please keep writing at least if you don’t have someone you trust that you can talk to. And please try and derail the temptation to cut.
I used to cut years ago…engraved words into my body. You think the physical pain will help with the emotional pain, a distraction from emotional pain…physical pain you can understand, emotional pain is hard to understand. For me too I knew the mistreatment I was constantly getting related to my body…I used to be stared at and people would whisper. Even when I got better people would still treat me bad and I knew my body was letting me down so I wanted to cut it for that reason as well. I remember the smirks on some guys faces as they knew that mistreating me was all I was worth…I’ll never forget those smirks, ever. I understand the attraction with cutting but in the end the relief is only temporary and the emotional pain remains so don’t bother cutting. You have to address the underlying emotional pain or mental illness. And as I always say, be careful who you let into your life.
I don’t think you should go down this road you are better then this, I have never actually cut myself but for years I did something just as bad I used to dig into my skin with my fingernails and now i have scars all over my hands and arms as a result, it may distract you from your pain for a brief moment but it is just not worth it i often look at my hands and arms and wonder what the fuck was i thinking i hate having to lie about how i got these scars every time someone asks because of how ashamed i am of them, YOU ARE WORTH PRESERVING toodepressedtothink YOU DON’T NEED TO HURT YOURSELF TO GET PAST THE PAIN YOU ARE STRONG ENOUGH TO GET THROUGH IT AND YOU WILL GET THROUGH IT!!.
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Cutting is not the right answer. Do you have anyone to talk to? friends? family? a teacher even?
I would say not to begin cutting. What are some reasons you want to start cutting? What do you hope to achieve by cutting? And ultimately what does cutting resolve?
I have lots of experience with anxiety and distress turning physical and it can cause me to do really irrational things. Cutting is very hard to stop once you start and I hope you can avoid it. The consequences (physical, social and psychological) can be terrible. Please keep writing at least if you don’t have someone you trust that you can talk to. And please try and derail the temptation to cut.
if you haven’t started…don’t. it’s like smoking…it’s addictive. you start craving that pain. and believe me, it can be very hard to resist.
I didnt see the comments in time. Im sorry everyone and thanks for the advice but I did it.
I used to cut years ago…engraved words into my body. You think the physical pain will help with the emotional pain, a distraction from emotional pain…physical pain you can understand, emotional pain is hard to understand. For me too I knew the mistreatment I was constantly getting related to my body…I used to be stared at and people would whisper. Even when I got better people would still treat me bad and I knew my body was letting me down so I wanted to cut it for that reason as well. I remember the smirks on some guys faces as they knew that mistreating me was all I was worth…I’ll never forget those smirks, ever. I understand the attraction with cutting but in the end the relief is only temporary and the emotional pain remains so don’t bother cutting. You have to address the underlying emotional pain or mental illness. And as I always say, be careful who you let into your life.
I don’t think you should go down this road you are better then this, I have never actually cut myself but for years I did something just as bad I used to dig into my skin with my fingernails and now i have scars all over my hands and arms as a result, it may distract you from your pain for a brief moment but it is just not worth it i often look at my hands and arms and wonder what the fuck was i thinking i hate having to lie about how i got these scars every time someone asks because of how ashamed i am of them, YOU ARE WORTH PRESERVING toodepressedtothink YOU DON’T NEED TO HURT YOURSELF TO GET PAST THE PAIN YOU ARE STRONG ENOUGH TO GET THROUGH IT AND YOU WILL GET THROUGH IT!!.