I don’t know your situation, other than what you have stated above and I don’t know how much is your resistance power. So I leave that judgement with you. Only you know when it is just not possible anymore and no matter of lecture from others will help to change that mind. So I hope you’d take your call judiciously, taking every aspect of your life and people around you into consideration and it won’t be a decision made in haste.

Now coming to the suicide methods, I’m also in your position, no money to get things and in this kind of world you need money to live and money to die as well, that kind of a world it is! People talk about various methods, the conventional ones are not painless. Jumping of a bridge can drown you eventually if it happens to be a less frequented place. For example, I can’t do that in my area since the river-traffic police is always on the alert and I have no wish to fail once I decide to take the plunge.

Getting helium might cost you, got no idea of its cost. If you have a car you can try CO poisoning or the Hydrogen Sulfide method made famous by the Japanese. It is not very costly, you just need to mix lime sulfur (pesticide) with muriatic acid (which is HCl basically) in equal proportions, the required amount in an enclosed space like car or a very small room. Only danger is that it might kill other people also, who’d like to check on you at some point of time.

I can tell you of two methods I wish to try personally, that people talk less about, after a bit more research, that is damn cheap or free of cost and without any hassle. It is salt-poisoning and water-poisoning. From what I’ve found out so far the LD50 for salt is 3g per KG of body weight and for water it is 14 litres consumed very fast. Both are almost sure to kill you, if you are not discovered soon enough. I’m going to try that salt one within a fortnight or so, therefore if I’m not available here anymore that’d mean I’m gone.

Cyanide and ********, the popular choices are not easy to get and they are costly, with chances of being confiscated by the customs or being scammed is very much there. You can think about hanging also, if you are comfortable with it. But do a proper research on it, because if things are messed up in the process, you’d be left in that state of unbearable pain for quite sometime before you’d eventually die. Who wants to take exit like that.

Whatever you do, weigh your options, do the research required, collect the materials required, choose your time and place and just take the plunge without any regret. Good luck!