Whenever someone is suicidal, or self harms, the question people most commonly ask is “Why?” The question they should really be asking is “Why not?”
Everyone else in the world–normal people, those who can function on a daily basis–has a reason why not (even if they don’t realize it.) They have friends, a career, art, music, something that makes their lives good enough to keep going. I don’t. I never have. The last time I attempted was almost three years ago. Since then I’ve been searching for a reason “Why not?” but I can’t find it.
I’ve been thinking about trying again. This Friday I have an essay on suicide prevention due for my psych class. When I saw the rubric, all I could think is that this is a sign. I can’t find a reason not to go through with it. I’ve tried the hotlines, I’ve tried reaching out to my family and friends. For me, there just isn’t a “Why not?”
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Well I am sorry to hear that you have come to this point. Are things really that bad that you cant make some changes in life and get some happiness? The reason people ask why is that they are just trying to help and offer suggestions about changes that person could make to make their life worth while and get past it. Me for instance I have had many of lives troubles come along and overwhelm me. Even to the point where I had attempts. But when that didn’t work out I decided to just make a whole hearted attempt to make things better for myself…. and things got better and I wound up living and having lots of great moments and great adventures in in life that I cherish and I am glad I didn’t die back when I tried. I would have missed out on some of the best times of my life. and things are still getting better for me.
so people just want you to know that things A get better
But well I hope you don’t do it. But it really is your choice and if that is your choice nobody can stop you.
I hope you live and find happiness…
I wish you peace in whatever you choose
I feel exactly the same. It’s not a case of why it’s a case of why not! Where are you in the world? I’m in the UK but am looking for a travel buddy, want to go to Mexico for death in a bottle, are you game?
you got school and the ability to learn. you dont sound like a moron. right there <— two reasons why not. you're able to string together a sentence and not sound like a dunst. open your eyes you have a lot more going for you than you claim or think
Your second paragraph is spot-on. Most people have at least one thing that keeps them going – often more – and makes them happy. I honestly don’t believe many of them can understand the feeling of true hopelessness.
As for “Why?” or “Why not?” Well, as KillSwitchOn said, you do have school and appear to be an intelligent person with the potential to make something of your life. I do hope you will realize this and find the will to move forward. Best wishes to you.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)