The only thing I want for my birthday,
Is a pocket knife.
And I wish it was for protection.
But, of course, its for cutting.. And hopefully suicide..
The thing is.. Most of my friends and family are most likely gonna get it for me.
I couldn’t be more thrilled and terrified.
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Do they know what you’ll probably use the pocket knife for? You should talk to them, things don’t have to be like this you know.
Not if you don’t want them to be.
Noo.. They don’t know..
I want it to be.. But I don’t, at the same time.
Yeah I get that, the whole contradicting emotions thing. The thing is that since you are having contradictory emotions, it most likely means that you do want to get better, at least on some level. Nobody is perfect, we slip up, but sometimes a slip up can turn into something a lot worse. Do you think you really want to die? Wouldn’t you rather live to see what’s gunna happen?
I can’t think of another way of getting better besides commiting suicide.. It will be best for me and everyone else I know..
Stabbing yourself, especially with a pocket knife is extremely difficult. It’s easier to just seek help. It’s easier to ask somebody for help, instead of trying to kill yourself. If your friends and family are going to get you a present, they obviously care about you. Why would you want to cause sorrow for them? One of them might get severly depressed…
I still regret cutting myself. One of my friends has become depressed because she saw my scars and to her, I guess I was important to her… Please… You DON’T want to live through the regret. I promise you, you really don’t wanrt to kill yourself or cut yourself.
You can talk to me if you need any help or just a talk.
I know.. I think about my family and my friends all the time.. And I was gonna slit my wrist and bleed it out.. But anyways, I just honestly, in my gut, think that everyone will be better off without me..
And if I don’t slit my wrist.. Better cuts.
Have you cut before?
Yes.. Many.. Many times..
Yh…i think ppl will be better off without me too….im tryna get better but it aint happenin…i just end up cryin…tho dnt cut ur guts…it might be too painfull for you…
Mmmhmm.. At we least we’re not alone.. Cut my guts??