I never thought I would be posting here but I finally am no longer able to handle everything that is going on in my life. I have just turned 22 and can no longer take the abuse from my father. Every day I am screamed at and it seems that like clock work every 5-6 months he beats me. I just cant take it anymore. I have been through many jobs and cant make enough to move out. Today he humiliated me and screamed at me in front of all the neighbors. Embarrassing. He leaves me feeling like there’s no longer a point in living. He treats me like total shit ever since I was a boy, 14 years old. He has calls me every name in the book. I have already been through psychotherapy. He refuses therapy himself. He screams at my mother as well but she puts up with it. He doesn’t yell at her like he yells at me. The only solution is for me to move out but right now that looks very bleak to nearly impossible. I need a way out of this suffering. I just can’t do it anymore. I guess this is one of the main reasons why I turned to weight lifting at age 16. I couldn’t take the abuse anymore and the only way I could feel good about myself was through lifting weights and looking good. I got into bodybuilding and working out. Today, he has taken that away from me. I no longer can workout because he yells “your shit takes up too much space in my garage, you’re getting the fuck out of my house.”… what is the fastest way to get out of this mess. I am applying everywhere to try and get a job. All options are on the table. Please help me.
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The short-term answer would be to apply at a variety of entry-level places (retail, restaurants, staffing agencies, etc.), find a room on Craigslist, and move out. You might want to see if your community offers free or reduced-cost counseling to help you move forward. It seems like you’ve been through a traumatizing event. Longer-term, once you’ve moved into a room, I’d look for permanent full-time employment and your own apartment.
I’m so sorry you are being abused like this. Do not die because of him. Do everything in your power to find work and move out, it might take a little while but that would be the best option. Can you reach out to a friend, a relative or even someone in your community that can help you? Tell someone what’s going on. If he beats you, that’s physical abuse- he can’t do that. He would go to jail if he’s reported. Maybe you can stay with someone for a while until you can get your own place. The solution is to get away from him. Don’t take your life over him. I’m sorry again you are going through this.
I think you need to get out of an abusive situation immediately and whichever way possible. Is there perhaps a friend or family member you can stay with? If not, you may be able to find a place to stay at a shelter or other establishment. I realize these options may not be ideal, but overall, I truly feel they are a better alternative than remaining in your current situation.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)