lifes just to hard

Sorry this ia written cappy

Hi my name is ezequiel and i am 14 years old and suicidal and i just wanna share my veiw on life.when i was 1-3 my parents brought me to arizona i lived with my mom,dad,and sister.Around the first few months that we moved here my dad began abuseing hard drugs like coke and lots of other drugs he would come home all druged out and abuse me and my sister(she was about 6 or 7)and he would cut my mom with knifes he was always like this.We were really poor my mom got a job at pizza hut and my dad was a good for nothing leach and stole money from my mom to get more drugs.Eventually when i was about 3 or 4 my mom sent him back to mexico and it was just us three,untill my grandma and aunts moved in with us and helped us with everything we needed,then when i was about 8 my brother was born.For most of my entire life i was a *****,i still am,and when i was about 12 my depression started out of i smoke marijuana alot to help me(it really doesnt)but ever since i was 12 ive attemted suicide about 9 times all by medical over doesing and i got taken to the hospitol once for that and twice to the mental hospitol(aurora behavioral center)and they said that the next time i attemt suicide theyr gonna send me to a boys home for four months,locked up inside i dont know if you guys have been to places like this but their horrible)now im 14 and have no reason to live i love my family but thats not a reason for me to stay im failing all of my freshman classes and thers just no point anymore and i just dont know what to do anymore.So yea my name is Ezequiel i am 14 years old and i am suicidal.