I don’t know how to feel about mine and Mrs. K’s relationship. She has been very nice to me and has been helping me with my drug problem and self harming. Last Wednesday when I stayed at her house I was having a really tough time, so she laid with me on the couch and stayed there, I was expecting her to get up and leave when I was asleep, but she didn’t.
At school she kind of was distant. I would try talking to her, just about school stuff, and she would not look me in the eye.
This weekend I went with her to her home town and Saturday night she laid with me again (no where else to sleep) and was talking to me and playing with my hair. Sunday when I was having a break down, she put my head in her lap and played with my hair. I told her that my grandma thought it was weird I was with her. She said that’s what she feared that people would think wrong. She said: “I thought long and hard about us. I sat there and wondered why I felt so close to you and wanted to be in your life and help you. I dont know if its just because my husband has been gone and I’m lonely, and you need someone to show you what a real trusting relationship looks like. I thought to myself that if I needed companionship why would I look for it in my 16 year old student…. we’re helping each other out.”
I’m taking all her niceness in the wrong way, I’m taking her caring and kindness as something more. I think I should distance myself from her, I know it’s not good that I feel this way, I know she doesn’t want a romantic relationship with me. But in growing feelings. HELP!?
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My teacher showed me love when I needed it- like you I had a drug problem and serious inescapable issues.
I look back on it as an adult and realise friendship is one thing, but when a teacher crosses the line and starts touching your body… It’s abuse of power. Still- my teacher helped me out of a mess and I am grateful for that.
I believe teachers will regret these actions with students… Do your kind hearted teacher a favour and save her from future guilt, the possibility of losing her job and shame in the community. That’s my advice.
Although at 16 you probably won’t listen, I didn’t.