My stupid pointless life

My dad,always yells at me,mostly if I have late homework.He tells me “You only think about your self!” Finding me crying,telling me to think about myself!And not to long ago.I was crying I wanna die.My dad was like “I don’t care!(in a whiny baby voice) I’m so poor and I wanna die just because I have to clean!”.My friends and my mother only know why I wanna die.My dear friend,Dorothy, died from a stroke…shortly after my tenth birthday.And she had got me lots of things and I wanted my mom to tell her I said “thank you” she said “no your going to make a card” then she died with out knowing.My mom didn’t know how broken my heart was.Then I cut…My friend told the school counselor.Okay so me and my friends have crushes on fake characters,mine were Jeff the Killer and Bonnie The Bunny.”go fuck Bonnie!Go fuck Jeff!” Is what I swear is all I heard from them.And I swear my bff likes that jerk more than me.I always cry and my mom says “Hush little angel,you want to take your life away,but I won’t let you.” At school,that girl called me lesbian.And I would cry at school.”why throw your self out,love?” My bff would ask.That girl yelled at me to shutup,”everyone hates you!””I know many people who have committed suicide!” I was crying I wanna die! My bff started crying.”your the best bff I’ve ever had!” “She made me cry when you are  sick!” I hugged her telling her “don’t go to her if she hurts you.” I won’t” then I saw her talking to her “why are you doing this???” “I want everybody to be happy!” I thought why don’t you care if she hurts me?