nobody will see this note nobody sw my last one and nobody cared if they did see it. i thought this would be a great place to prewrite my letter to my mom it has to be perfect because what i did is not her fault. she did everything she could.
mom i love you with all my heart
i was just an average girl happy and cheerful. i began to get older and saw things are cold. life isnt what it seems to be. i said i was alright. i told many small white lies about that. i think im depressed but didnt want to be a bother. i have no friends at school. most cuts i could say was the cat. you are not the one to blame its the world. im weak im sorry. this world is just not my place. im just a waste of space. i think i was born in the wrong place in time. i will watch over you. keep an eye on mariah im scared she is headed to same place as me. remember you ment everything to me. i love you mom
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Hold On. Nobody commented on your old post. But everyone saw that post. Many of us can’t make your heart because we too with suicidal thoughts.
Hey, I just want you to know that you’re not alone.. And if you’re thinking of taking your own life.. It’s not worth it… Your mother would be crushed knowing her daughter died.. And if you’re feeling like you’re worthless, or you’re not good enough.. You are not.. You are worth so much to so many people… You might not think that people care.. But people do care. I care.. Every life is precious.. I hope things get better for you..
Try to get some help before OK. Here there everywhere suicide is not the only answer. It involves an expansion of your conscious. Yes you are not alone some people have gone before you but some have also let whatever depression whatever pass through them and feel it all and be a total mess. If you get through this mess you are stronger than what you can imagine.. Be that strong person
Hang in there…. at the very least give yourself a few more days. Unfortunately all posts get comments but don’t think that no one cares. You’re in pain. I think all of us on SP are in pain…
From your post it sounds like you care a great deal for others. You think you’re depressed but don’t want to be a bother. Don’t hold this on the inside… I’m confident that your mother would much rather have a depressed daughter than a dead one…. give your mother a chance on this one… at least do that.
You’re in pain. Let someone close to you know. Let them “in”…. with depression you want to isolate. Please don’t do this. You have people that you care about and I’m confident that they care for you as well if you let them.
A variation of “Her Last Words”, huh? Yeah, not every post gets comments. Sometimes it’s because it was posted during a busy time, sometimes it’s just because the people who read it don’t think they have anything really substantial to add to what was said. Doesn’t mean nobody saw it, doesn’t mean nobody cares.
Exactly people still read that shit. Some days its hard to react or reason with every post and some days I just have to deal with my own shit. Shit being schizophrenic voices 🙂
So sometimes I take a holiday thank god for me not doing anything stupid and drink half a dozen bourbons.